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I don't go out much with others, and flake out a lot on plans.. I've been ignoring people, and worst of all I've been ignoring myself. The worst thing is, this is all for somebody else. I'm living for someone else and not for myself, and I feel horrible and controlled. All the love, and time I've been giving them has been misinterpreted as false.. I'm accused of things that don't make any sense. I feel abused, mentally, and controlled. I feel like a piece of shit. I feel like if I leave, they will think I'm leaving for someone else (which is not true, if anything it's so I can be a normal person again) and will constantly be receiving remarks from this person to falsely remind myself that I am some kind of slut (even though I would just be trying to carry on with life). The other part is, if I stay with this person, they will continue to falsely accuse me of talking to others, not caring about them, etc etc.. I am being abused mentally and it is not a nice feeling. I should not have to justify myself all the time, especially when I'm just trying to go about life.. I don't need this!! It's not natural. I should be able to live my life like a normal human being