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I need to sort things out without being clouded by being in love with someone. Apparently doing dishes while someone's on the computer, then making them dinner and trying to let them have time to themselves is suffocating.. then watching a show so they have time to work on music and having them come in near the end only to have them complain about you suffocating them when you ask if you can have a simple hug.. then they choose to go to sleep when you always stay up with them when you're tired.. and won't talk to you.. and then when you try to quietly watch a show because you're sad and can't sleep they choose sleeping on a couch over you.. And you try to convince them to come back and that you'll stay asleep and won't bug them.. but they still choose the couch over you.. and just leave you crying like they don't care... and you're supposed to believe them when they say they love you.. though they say it less now that they've dragged you into living with them.. I feel like I'm loving a wall sometimes. I wish I was actually doing something wrong so I could feel bad for a reason, not just unloved. What am I supposed to do? Being nice doesn't seem to be working. I try to be understanding and reasonable but that's not doing anything. I'd like to talk about this but it'll just turn into a "fight" where I'm being ignored.. What to do, what to do.. Sucks when people give you the wrong impression.. ughhhh