Eff
I don't know why I hurt myself. I'm just so irritated and angry. All I want to do right now is just drink. Yep. I don't want to quit drinking, sorry. Fuck I can't even write anything, this is so pointless. I hate being forced to work. I hate all this control. I should start writing in a real journal again so I can actually SAY what is going on without being all "fuck fuck fuck this sucks I'm an idiot for fucking up, this is how I'm feeling" and just sounding like a complete whiny idiot. Argggggggggggggg I wish I had a fucking on and off button.. could just turn off whenever the hell I wanted to.