man oh man
some things just aren't ment to be happening and some are, im just confused as to if i am making the right decisions, i cannot deal with choosing the wrong one and end up hurting someone in the end. it is total bullshit.
today was a pissed the fuck off day.
ive had this headach for 3 days, and all i wanted to do was laydown or go home for it, but NO stupid bitch had to turn it into aceusing me of being anorexic, and then trying to talk to me about my mental state.
no no no.
school issues and home issues are seperate, as are many things i do.
i CANNOT stand the fact that the school knows about my cutting now,
MY WALLS ARE GONE, completly shattered... no safety, everyone knows, and the fucking nurse needs to kiss me arse...MY CUTTING NOT YOURS YOU CANNOT KNOW WHIE OR WHEN OR WHERE OR HOW!!!
FUCK YOU NOW.
edward...pissed at me. dunno whie yet...
fuck.
today is a bad day, im thinking i should just sleep the rest of it...and just leave it and run away, its better off in my head for that than to deal with it.
yes me being unable to want to deal with things, go on think what you want, yeah i run away.
fuck you, you've prolly done it before in yer life time too so shut the fuck up.
i, me, myself.
this is what i need to focus on rite now, and some people yell at me for it, and they hate me for it, but ya know what...
stewie never has time for herself, she's always spreading herself so thin for everyone else and its breaking the shit out of her.
i wish everything was a dream, fake...i wish this wasn't reality.
i need to get out of it.
school is bullshit, rumors, petty bullshit, people expecting me to be happy all the time, people expecting so much more outa me... i can't live up to them, if i can't live up to myself.
"i am strong and you are weak,
wait...you are strong and i am weak...."
-cursive
soo true.
anyways...i updated, happy?
today was a pissed the fuck off day.
ive had this headach for 3 days, and all i wanted to do was laydown or go home for it, but NO stupid bitch had to turn it into aceusing me of being anorexic, and then trying to talk to me about my mental state.
no no no.
school issues and home issues are seperate, as are many things i do.
i CANNOT stand the fact that the school knows about my cutting now,
MY WALLS ARE GONE, completly shattered... no safety, everyone knows, and the fucking nurse needs to kiss me arse...MY CUTTING NOT YOURS YOU CANNOT KNOW WHIE OR WHEN OR WHERE OR HOW!!!
FUCK YOU NOW.
edward...pissed at me. dunno whie yet...
fuck.
today is a bad day, im thinking i should just sleep the rest of it...and just leave it and run away, its better off in my head for that than to deal with it.
yes me being unable to want to deal with things, go on think what you want, yeah i run away.
fuck you, you've prolly done it before in yer life time too so shut the fuck up.
i, me, myself.
this is what i need to focus on rite now, and some people yell at me for it, and they hate me for it, but ya know what...
stewie never has time for herself, she's always spreading herself so thin for everyone else and its breaking the shit out of her.
i wish everything was a dream, fake...i wish this wasn't reality.
i need to get out of it.
school is bullshit, rumors, petty bullshit, people expecting me to be happy all the time, people expecting so much more outa me... i can't live up to them, if i can't live up to myself.
"i am strong and you are weak,
wait...you are strong and i am weak...."
-cursive
soo true.
anyways...i updated, happy?