Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I'm so sick and tired of always being sick and tired. I'm sick, and it seems as if i have no will to do anything. EVeryday is the same. nothing to look forward to, besides another day of living. but i mean there has to be more to life.... i'm not sure. this summer i'm going to have to do faith academy once again, but hey at least i'll stil lget my credtis but a friens of mine told me that they might end faith. they best not. anyways.... moving on. i was sick all day long. steven checked out early right after first period. i missed him so much. i had no idea of how much i would miss him, but i did. i'm just lucky to have him in my life right now. he makes me so utterly happy and i always seem to hurt him and do him wrong. i've just become so cold hearted, bitchy, and too independent over the years, but at the same time i need him and would not know what to do without him now that i have him. but anyways, lol. yeah... i was out of it. my throat hurt, i was having hot flashes, chill bumps, head aches, on my period, cramps.... i felt as if i was falling apart. i feel a little better now, still hurts to talk. I'm going to Macon to spend the night with Mischner. I love her. She is like a sis to me. we've been through a lot together and i plan on having many more years together with her to go through. i found something out that happened to amani that was just terrible. it hurt me because there was nothing i could do to help. i felt so helpless that i couldn't help my friend and be there for her right away when she needed me the most.
well i'm tired so sweet dreams.
much love and payce!!!
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