choosing one and only one...

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a few weeks ago i was given a challenge between two people both who i liked at the time...one of them was my ex boyfriend and the other was a guy friend who i was starting to like at the time. and i also found out that both liked me at this time. during that time me and my ex bf were fighting a lot online mostly because he was mad at me for not having time to hang out with him so far during the summer. i kept saying its not my fault that i am busy this summer and i have a lot of things to do. for example i had a job which cut down time i was spending with my friends so i was basically glued to my friends on the days i didnt have work. some days i would also be forced to go out of town and visit my familywhich i really dont find exciting. anyways...i really liked my guy friend and i was trying to let go of my ex bf because of the fact that i was starting to like my guy friend and also because we were fighting all the time. i basically just decided to let him go all together. i decided for myself that he was a jerk and i liked my guy friend better. but he didnt give up. he would not let go of his feelings for me and i was getting tired of him trying to get me back. i knew he didnt like me anymore or maybe he did but he had a bad way of showing it. he had no problem being a jerk to me and i knew he liked another girl whose name will not be named. once i found that out i knew my ex bf was a real jerk and i knew all he wanted me for was to make out with me and touch my ass. i knew that he didnt care about me and he was just saying that so he would have a girlfriend to show off to his friends. why are guys such jerks? why do they use girls like that? its just going to screw up their reputation and since he will be a senior this year that will be the reputation that will stick. my ex bf has declared that he hates me now and we are definately not friends and i will have to see him almost everyday at lunch unless he changes tables because i am not changing tables next year. i also dont know if my guy friend knows that i like him and he will go to cal high this year. if  we start going out i think it would be awkward because i have never had a bf at a fifferent school before and i wouldnt see him much because of colorguard and competitions that are like every weekend.

happier events...

my guy friend who has been at camp for the past 3 weeks is coming home tomorrow

i have drivers ed next week monday through thursday and i have an hour lunch break from 12-1 at amador driving school so come visit!

i have band camp and although thats not exciting at all i am excited that i will get to see all the people that i have missed do much this summer and havent seen...well all the people except the seniors that are now frosh!! haha! i am also glad that i know people and i am a lot more comfortable with going to band camp this year because i know more people than i did last year when i knew like 5 people or so.

please comment and tell me what you think i should do about my ex bf next year and also what you think i should do about my guy friend. it would be greatly appreciated.

thanks for listening to my rant!

come on you read all this...you have to have some imput for me on the above topics! please help me!