the phone slips from a loose grip.
This weekend has been ok i guess. on friday i did nothing really. i could have. but i wasn't invited out. maxx took jarika and amber shoping at value village. that kinda made me mad. he always leaves me out. he says it's because i'm so mean to him. but he doesn't realize that he is the one who is really mean to me. always saying coments about me or pushing me out of the way while i'm walking with my friends. i only say things to him as a joke to get him off my back and to leave me alone. he really pisses me off how he is always so down on himself. i mean i know he can't help it, but still. he is always saying how he has no friends and no one cares about him because he is just some ugly guy. if that were try then why the hell would we always go out of our way to talk with him and make plans on the weekend with him. i'm the only one who sticks up to him and tells him that it's not true and to stop being so down on himself because he is only doing it for attention. what do i get out of it? nothing at all. just to be called a bitch. jarika called me on friday and told me that she would be moving this summer to Vancouver. i couldn't help but cry. once again i felt really empty inside. like a piece of me is being taken away. i don't know what i would do without her. who will i tell all my secrets to. i have no one else that i can tell things to like i would tell to her. she is like my diary. who will i walk in the halls with. i do have other friends. like amber. and others as well. but they will never compare to jarika. i would be happy if she got out of this goddamned city. but i would miss her too much. i don't care if i'm being selfish. i don't want her to go. if she does go though i will go see her in the summer after i return from Europe. i just found out that i'll be in athens a week before the olympics start. that should be fun. saturday i went to jarika's work to go pick her up. she told me to eat dinner while she was just finishing up some things in the kitchen. so i sat by myself for about an hour. god was i bored. i wished i had someone there to talk to. finally she was done so she wanted to go to subway. so i sat there while she ate. then we were walking to the bus stop when my mom called and said she would pick us up because she was in the area and drive us to jarika's. which she did. so first before my mom picked us up we went in to zellers to go get some stuff. amber came over to jarikas as well and brought some coolers and beer over. so we drank those. after that we got invited over to kristyns house (one of sarahs friends house) so we were all going ot go there but amber couldn't go. so she called her dad to ask him to pick her up. even though we didn't want her to go. i felt bad when she left because i felt like a bad friend picking a party over haning with a friend. some and jarika got a cab and took it to kristyns house. when we got there it was really odd because they were already drunk. it was around 11 when we got there. so me and jarika had a couple of more drinks there. by that time my stomach was burning so bad. kristyns parents came home so we had to leave to go to vanessa's. so we had to walk accross this huge field. that didn't work out too good. it was covered in snow, but it was the kind of snow where if you take like three steps you full in the snow. it was really deep. it was up to my knees. so that didn't work out too good. i mean it was hard walking through that in high shoes and after drinking. so i wasn't having fun because i was really cold and my feet were freezing. by the time we finally got to her house we couldn't go in because vanessa's parents only wanted 3 people in the house and there was 4 of us. so jarika and i had to wait outside till parents went back to bed. it was soo cold outside. finally we got to go in and we called a taxi to come get us because we were really cold and wanted to go home. so the taxi got there and we went back to jarika's. i have cuts all over my legs from the ice and snow, and falling so deep into the snow. i was going to sleep over at jarika's but i decided to go home. so here i am now. there's a show going on tonight that i really wanted to go see. there was good bands there. but i have to stay home because i am diong some project for english. i told amber and jarika that i would just do it and they could go to the show. it's all good. i really didn't feel like going out tonight anyways. but yep. that's about it.