A New Year
Wow... this picture doesn't look like me at all. I guess cuz I'm sick and my eyes look chinkier... Haha!
Another year has come and it felt like I didn't fully soak in 2009 or did much at all. It all went by too fast, but at the same time I was glad it went by quickly because I didn't like 2009 much at all. Looking back, it felt like I did and went through a lot more on my own than any other years before that... half the year I stayed in NY, I made and became a lot closer to my friends in NY, I handled all the moving and packing all on my own, I moved back to California, I got closer to my best friends and became closer to friends, made a lot of new and old friends, I took a lot of risks, and I had a lot of "ME" time. Like with any year, with the good there is always the bad... I can name a lot, but the main one I felt hurt the most was my career. It's still no where where I want to be, and thinking back... it makes me even more depressed to know that I did all that and nothing was accomplished. All in all, although I know the bad outweighed the good, the good parts out shined the bad parts. 2009 definitely felt like a roller coaster ride in all sorts of ways.
I hope 2010 will go smoothly and that happiness will be there more than sadness. Two nights ago, James and Yuta took me, my sisters, Thao, and George somewhere up near Vista Point... it was breathtaking getting there and being there. This was something I've always wanted to do with the people whom I love, to look at the stars and the city lights. I was overwhelmed with happiness... just being there with them sharing this moment with them. It felt like one of my "THINGS TO DO WITH THE PEOPLE I LOVE LIST" has been accomplished! While being there, I stared at the city lights and it made me think about the past, the people I met, the people I stopped talking to, and who I was back then. It all felt so negative back then. It's actually painful to even think back sometimes... but I know if it weren't for those experiences, I wouldn't be the person that I am today. I know I changed quite a lot as a person and I'm glad that I did, it's due to all those bad things it made me appreciate more, it made me a calm person, and hopefully... a person with a bigger, caring, and understanding heart. I also thought about, "what if nothing has changed... if I didn't change or if the same people that were bad for me were still in my life?" Things like that makes me wonder, it makes me so happy to know what I have now... All these amazing friends and loved ones that are around me. It's just hard to imagine how life brings you up to this point now. I feel like I really am lucky to have met all these wonderful people. Life surprises you sometimes, it can actually bring you unexpected happiness and that's how I feel right now... happy. Of course, there were lots of hardships along the way, but it brought me to here where I couldn't ask for more when it comes to love and friendship. 2010 is looking great so far, if it can always be like this... then that's all I want; for the simple things in life to continue on and make us happy.
Resolutions... I didn't take much time to think about it during New Years, but as days went on... I thought about it thoroughly:
- as always, to become a better person
- to always keep in touch with distant and near friends
- to always be there for my best friends and family
- to keep my new close friends
- to bring a camera and take more pictures for memories!
- go out and do more things with friends and family
- work on my fashion line
- get a job relating to my major -___-
- to lose weight!
- to be happy with myself and with life in general
That's all for now, it's pretty much the same every year plus and minus a few things here and there.
May 2010 be filled with love, happiness, and laughter!