dreaming of a place...
Haven't posting my daily doings lately. I suppose it's due to me appreciating things around me more and wanting to try new things.
Summer hasn't really been about friends, friendship seems questionable lately I guess it's all part of growing up it doesn't matter how old you are, everyone has their own priorities, self-discoveries, and changes... But I know who will always be there for me. Time doesn't seem to change that and for that... I'm grateful for it.
Summer this year is much cooler than any other Summers that I can remember, especially Summer in NY. It's actually nice, at least I'm not dying... or maybe I'm use to it now? Anyways, I don't know if it's cuz I want a change of scenery or I'm sick of the city life, but I'm appreciating nature more. Not to say that I never enjoyed nature... I always have, but I can't really explain why exactly I'm loving it more. For goodness sakes, I told my friends I wanted to go camping! And we all know how I can't live without my blowdryer and shower! I've always appreciated interior decorating due to my mom who has always influenced me in that. I use to enjoy clean, modern, sleek homes, but now I'm loving more of a rustic, antique, country, vintage feel to a home. Things you find at second hand shops or things that people tossed away, but you fix it up to be your special thing to add to your cozy home. I just love the random pieces you can find and it just goes together with your home. It's kind of like my mom's home, it has that feeling to it. Although nothing is second hand, but it has that feeling. I think when I move in to my own place again I'm going to change the style once more, to have that cozy antique country feeling. I guess it's hard to explain... I'll show a picture of what I mean one day.
Since I have no luck with finding a job, I've been keeping myself busy. I've been doing all the things I've been wanting to do that I never got the time to do. It's quite a lengthy list and I'm enjoying every minute of it. First off, my current obsession is baking. Don't ask me why I started this hobby... just one day I felt like it. I started cooking for myself and then it just turned into baking. Baking is like another form of art to me. It can look beautiful, but the hardest part I think is to also make it taste yummy. It's just a satisfying feeling to do all that work and then when you're done, everything turned out perfect. I'm a perfectionist and I always try to achieve that in everything I do. And I mean... EVERYTHING! Ok... maybe not school. Funny thing is... I never eat the things I bake, I always make my sisters and mom do it. I suppose it's cuz it's more important to know what others think especially if they're the ones eating them! My baking has become really popular that my aunts are requesting me to make birthday cakes for my cousins birthdays (and I get paid!)...thank goodness they're all Summer kids cuz that's when all the best fruits come out! I've been trying all sorts of baking from cookies, cakes, cupcakes, and icecream cakes! It's really fun and a stress reliever. Cooking is also fun, but they're not as pretty & sweet. LOL!
Besides cooking, I've also been trying to finish video games that I haven't touched. I'm such a RPG fanatic. Other things I'm doing is drawing and painting again. I'm actually doing a portrait for my mom of her children =) It's not going to be realistic, but more of a stylized version of it. Since in college, I haven't had the time to revisit my fine arts side anymore... it's been more technical and fashion. I love fashion, but sometimes I need air. I'll take a picture of them once I'm done. Besides painting, I'm going to start a make-up experimentation photoshoot. I'm going to experiment on myself, my sisters, and hopefully my friends. It's something I've been wanting to do since my make-up and effects class was over. It was so much fun and creativity that I wanted to continue, besides... I have this amazing eye-shadow palette that Wen bought for me and I haven't been able to use yet! I've also been doing photography of random things, since my mom bought my sisters a professional camera for photoshoots I never gotten the chance to use it till now. Everything just looks heavenly and whatever you take it makes it look a million times better as though it's from another place. I can't say I'm good at taking pictures, but it's fun especially if I'm taking pictures of my baked goods. Heeeee! I've been reading as well. Yes, quite a surprise. Ever since I read the Twilight saga, I feel the need to read more books. Right now I'm reading the "Twelve Kingdoms" and I recommend it to everyone! I'm also watching the anime, just cuz I'm a wierdo like that. The books are taking such a long time to release though, it'll probably take them 5 years till it's done translating all the books. UGH! Also, my sisters and I are starting a manga. I guess you can say we're like CLAMP except not hardcore and this is just for fun. I can't say much cuz Aki would kill me, but it's just amazing and I know I said I will never start up a manga again nor draw that much, but I felt compelled to do it. It's probably going to be a long process, but we will have a separate journal to show our updates and try to attract more audiences once things are more set.Christine has high expectations, and I hope I can succeed which is why I'm practicing drawing again cuz I'm so rusty now. Besides all of this, I am still of course working on my fashion things. Since I started interning, my boss has been so helpful as to where they get their supplies. It helps me out a lot since I'm trying to work on my own collection. It's still a working progress as well. Hmmm... it seems like I'm trying to let out all my artistic sides. I guess all these things takes me to another place, a place where I feel more at ease and at peace. Is this all part of growing up? Or am I just escaping reality? Hmmm...
I took this picture one day, this is actually my next door neighbors home. He recently got married and his surroundings has become even more beautiful. I love their chairs and table. Whenever the weather is nice, the couple would sit there and talk while playing chess. Isn't that adorable?! Mom told me about that when I found their home to be beautifully fascinating. Although my neighborhood isn't adorable or nice, but doesn't this picture seem to make it look like it's from another place?? Ahhh... the power of photography.
Anyways, it's like what I always say..."a home always needs a woman's touch." =)