2006: the year of the brittain
Tonight, while sitting in the kitchen, eating some hot dogs, I've come to a brutal realization. Let me explain: Everything I've done has either in bad taste or bad judgment. These actions have had dire consequences and now I'm stuck to, as they say, "reap what I've sown". The seeds that I've metaphorically planted have done nothing but left me alone, depressed, and listening to music on this Saturday evening.
I miss having someone in town to hang out with all the time. I miss having someone to talk to about anything, even if I was too stupid to exploit the opportunity. I miss all the friends from high school that have gone out and done something with themselves; something more than me.
I can't do this shit anymore. I need to accomplish something. I need to BE something. I want to mean something to someone. I want to be more to someone than anyone else. I need to realize that friendships are mutual; even dogs stop responding to your calls if you frequently push them away. I wish I could take it all back and do it correctly this time. I just need a second chance at this game we all play.
My only hope is that this year will provide me with the opportunity I need to make myself something more. I need to work hard at school and stay diligent to get to NIU. Until that time, I want to try and be a better person. I want to start eating healthier. I want to start going to the gym regularly. I want to be a good friend. I want to know how everyone's doing and I want someone to ask me how I am purely because they wanted to.
- chris
EDIT: LJ revival!
I miss having someone in town to hang out with all the time. I miss having someone to talk to about anything, even if I was too stupid to exploit the opportunity. I miss all the friends from high school that have gone out and done something with themselves; something more than me.
I can't do this shit anymore. I need to accomplish something. I need to BE something. I want to mean something to someone. I want to be more to someone than anyone else. I need to realize that friendships are mutual; even dogs stop responding to your calls if you frequently push them away. I wish I could take it all back and do it correctly this time. I just need a second chance at this game we all play.
My only hope is that this year will provide me with the opportunity I need to make myself something more. I need to work hard at school and stay diligent to get to NIU. Until that time, I want to try and be a better person. I want to start eating healthier. I want to start going to the gym regularly. I want to be a good friend. I want to know how everyone's doing and I want someone to ask me how I am purely because they wanted to.
- chris
EDIT: LJ revival!