Holiday aftermath.
Yes, it's been a while. so sue me. I've been with the family for three long weeks now. I'm going crazy but I'm definitely sure I'm not the only one out there experiencing this. After building my own life and then coming back to the roots that started me, I see how I have grown. And I see how others have or have not progressed with themselves. The mere state of my family startles me. We've been through hell before and it seems like the start of another turmultous chapter. I'm glad i'm not too close to get involved.
This is a vague attempt at beginning to understand all the memories, feelings and whatnot that my family has the special ability of stirring up. I was a determined, strong minded person before i came for the holidays and lately a simple word or picture puts me in tears.
Double edged sword of having family...they can be there to support you and help you when you need helping but at the same time cut you deeper than anyone else you'll ever cross. They help shape you and destroy you. The price of letting people close.
I don't know, I'm not speaking anything worth reading at the moment, I'm just ready to get back.
This is a vague attempt at beginning to understand all the memories, feelings and whatnot that my family has the special ability of stirring up. I was a determined, strong minded person before i came for the holidays and lately a simple word or picture puts me in tears.
Double edged sword of having family...they can be there to support you and help you when you need helping but at the same time cut you deeper than anyone else you'll ever cross. They help shape you and destroy you. The price of letting people close.
I don't know, I'm not speaking anything worth reading at the moment, I'm just ready to get back.