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amazing.
this entire year. a roller coaster of feelings and emotions and friends and just everything you could imagine. ok, maybe not everything, but pretty damn close. i mean, getting here and being in a band that i was not used to, with a director who was new and a leadership team that i didn't like so much. it was all new. then there was having to room with someone i'd never met and later moving in with someone else that i had never met. then there were the friends that i've made along the way. i looked around at an end of the year bbq for honors and i was astounded at how lucky i am to have these new friends. it made me miss the ones i've have back home.
i'm going home soon
i'm a different person.
i miss music. and what it has done for me. i went to see the connally band play a few weeks ago, pretty good. i remembered being nervous my freshman year. it apparently was band trip time and oh man, do i remember those! California (amazing) colorado, arlington and Indianapolis. crazy fun times with smoke filled rooms and getting to change because of it.
my face lights up and i don't know how i feel about it. i've learned a few things while here. i can be true to myself and not have people i don't know dislike me. its ok to say no. be the same where ever you go.
passion rules everything inside me. if i'm not passionate about it, you'll know. because when i am, i put my whole heart into it. i don't give up on people. it's not who i am.
i've been able to speak to God more these days. partly because of my sisters, and partly because its time. my sisters just helped me a little; they were the last link.
it's ok to be vulnerable. its better that way. you get to experience more that way. and never let anyone try to change who you are inside. you have to be true to yourself.
this entire year. a roller coaster of feelings and emotions and friends and just everything you could imagine. ok, maybe not everything, but pretty damn close. i mean, getting here and being in a band that i was not used to, with a director who was new and a leadership team that i didn't like so much. it was all new. then there was having to room with someone i'd never met and later moving in with someone else that i had never met. then there were the friends that i've made along the way. i looked around at an end of the year bbq for honors and i was astounded at how lucky i am to have these new friends. it made me miss the ones i've have back home.
i'm going home soon
i'm a different person.
i miss music. and what it has done for me. i went to see the connally band play a few weeks ago, pretty good. i remembered being nervous my freshman year. it apparently was band trip time and oh man, do i remember those! California (amazing) colorado, arlington and Indianapolis. crazy fun times with smoke filled rooms and getting to change because of it.
my face lights up and i don't know how i feel about it. i've learned a few things while here. i can be true to myself and not have people i don't know dislike me. its ok to say no. be the same where ever you go.
passion rules everything inside me. if i'm not passionate about it, you'll know. because when i am, i put my whole heart into it. i don't give up on people. it's not who i am.
i've been able to speak to God more these days. partly because of my sisters, and partly because its time. my sisters just helped me a little; they were the last link.
it's ok to be vulnerable. its better that way. you get to experience more that way. and never let anyone try to change who you are inside. you have to be true to yourself.