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favorite card:
No mater how crazy my life gets, i know you'll be there, and when it's your turn to lose it... you can count on me. We're so screwed if it happens at the same time.
I'm so in love. =)
I can't explain it, i just... i just love him so much. he takes such good care of me, and some how understands me. he loves spoiling me, and as i look at the flowers he gives me, i know i would love him just as much with out them right beside me. these material objects mean nothing without the love behind them giving them meaning.
i know some people are reading this and don't agree. they believe i've become dependent on him and that i've neglected my friends. i'm happy. i'm fine with going to college thats close, even though i spent much time last year wanting to get as far away from here as i could. i was scared then, i didn't think i could handle being so close. but now, i'm fine being close and actually want to be, cause i have both families close at hand and can spend time with all of them. i've been away from NB so many months this year, i don't htink i've spent more than maybe 10 days down there this past year. it's hard not seeing my sister, my grandparents, my cousins and my father. this way i can get the dorm experience and my family all at once. it's not because i want to stay close with him, believe me, thats just a plus. besides if i wanted to stay close, i'd just move in with him. i can't do that, i need my space, and i'm not sure if mom will be able to afford me living with her anymore. so if i can get a good scholarship to a place nearby, and still get that away from home deal, so be it. i love you all, and please dont think i'm selling out on my future.
No mater how crazy my life gets, i know you'll be there, and when it's your turn to lose it... you can count on me. We're so screwed if it happens at the same time.
I'm so in love. =)
I can't explain it, i just... i just love him so much. he takes such good care of me, and some how understands me. he loves spoiling me, and as i look at the flowers he gives me, i know i would love him just as much with out them right beside me. these material objects mean nothing without the love behind them giving them meaning.
i know some people are reading this and don't agree. they believe i've become dependent on him and that i've neglected my friends. i'm happy. i'm fine with going to college thats close, even though i spent much time last year wanting to get as far away from here as i could. i was scared then, i didn't think i could handle being so close. but now, i'm fine being close and actually want to be, cause i have both families close at hand and can spend time with all of them. i've been away from NB so many months this year, i don't htink i've spent more than maybe 10 days down there this past year. it's hard not seeing my sister, my grandparents, my cousins and my father. this way i can get the dorm experience and my family all at once. it's not because i want to stay close with him, believe me, thats just a plus. besides if i wanted to stay close, i'd just move in with him. i can't do that, i need my space, and i'm not sure if mom will be able to afford me living with her anymore. so if i can get a good scholarship to a place nearby, and still get that away from home deal, so be it. i love you all, and please dont think i'm selling out on my future.