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here's the deal. guess which number you are. some of the people i'm writing about aren't people who have livejournals; i'm just writing about people i care about.
1.) You. Where do I begin with you? I know you already know I'm talking about you, because you know you're always on my mind. If I think back to before we met, and who I was, it doesn't even seem like it was me. I feel like I was just walking around in a body that looked like mine, with a face like mine, but I have since become the me I've wanted to become since as far back as I can remember. You have helped me to become that girl. And no matter where we go from here, I will always look at you with immense appreciation for your love and support. I will be here for you, do anything for you, and show you the same things in your own life that you've allowed me to see in my own. You've helped me to see what is important, and how amazingly beautiful life can be. You are a true gift to the world, and a blessing in my life. I love you.
2.) Squares. Circles. Triangles. That blank stare that caught my attention and told me that you so needed someone who loved you to come and take you in their arms and tell you how amazing and strong you are. Because you were. And you are. I wish I could give you one day in my body so you could see how I see you, through my eyes, and know what a true inspiration you are. I remember how small you seemed to me. How when you laughed it was an event for me. And now, it is rare to not hear your laugh. It makes me cry to think about how far you've come, all you've faced, and everything you have made for yourself, without letting the hard times become who you are. You and I have been through the shitter and heaven in the same week. I know we will be friends until the day we die. And I can't even begin to explain how happy that makes me. Here's to making our dreams come true.
3.) I feel like everytime I sit down to write to you (and believe me, this isn't the first time I've try to say these things...), I end up saying the same thing over and over. But there is no harm in repeating things that are true. I wish for you so much happiness and love that you don't know where to put it all. That you can stare yourself down and say "Damnnn, I am a pretty incredible person" and believe it. That you will believe in your intelligence and beauty and strength, and not have to look outside yourself to see it. You have everything inside you to make the life you want and the person you want to be. I will be here to show you that when you forget, I will sing you your song if you forget the words. But you have to write it for yourself. I adore who you are and I believe you will see that in yourself one day as well. And when you do, I'll still be here. No matter what.
4.) We used to loathe each other. Or at least, we pretended we did until we made up and made noises through the vents when were in time outs. You constantly amaze me with your wisdom and brilliance. The woman you are becoming just blows me away. And I get to say, "yeah, that's MY sister". I look up to you (even though you're shorter!) and am so proud of you and your life. You are one of the best people I know, with the best heart and I love to learn from you. Thank you for allowing me to be me...I know it's been rough at times, but your undying loyalty has been one of the most meaningful things anyone has ever given to me. I love you more than you know.
5.) I remember when I first met you and I totally thought you were a cocky asshole who knew he was awesome and decided everyone else should know too. But as I've grown to understand you and be friend you, I see so much more than the surface "performer" that I first met. You are a wonderful, kind, sensitive, and understanding person who will go so far in life that you will even surprise yourself. I have so much faith in you and who you are, and cannot even wait to see where your talents and passion take you. Thank you for the memories, and for being a great husband (wink wink).
6.) Ohhhh you. It's funny because we don't remember how we got to be friends, but we still manage to have the most fun together, even though we don't see each other nearly enough! I remember the night of Dr. Pepper on my balcony, and how in the hell "moose" came about just totally slips my mind...But regardless. We had such a great time rockin' up that city of S-to-the-alem, and I'm so glad we still talk and hang out and manage to find humor in the weirdest things. I'm so thankful for how much you make me laugh :) You are so beautiful and talented...don't let anyone hold you down.
7.) Honestly, I'd have to say you hurt me more than anyone ever has. And for a while, I resented you for poisoning me with your words and actions. But the thing is that I am so thankful for the experience I had with you, and I see the good in you that I always told you was there. Even when you would tell me you were worth nothing and I shouldn't waste my time with you, I knew you were worth so much more than you were giving yourself credit for. I wanted to show you, but you didn't want to see. And now that we can both look back and smile, and talk without the tears or tension, I thank you for helping me shape my life and what and who I want to be. I am SO happy for you and your accomplishments, and even if we never talk again, I have complete faith that you know exactly how much I respect you.
8.) I didn't really know you in high school. I knew who you were. You were always real cool and so good at everything that I just kind of assumed we'd never get along. But ironically, we did. I remember once we were driving in your car and it was raining, and you were a senior and I was a junior, and where we were going, I have no idea. But I do remember the moment I realized we were really similar. We both love the spotlight. Both refuse to be ruled by mediocrity. And both just want to be loved unconditionally without sacrificing ourselves for that feeling. I get that about you, and you inspire me to not be just "okay", but to be "the best". And just for the record, you are pretty fucking amazing.
9.) We've known eachother soooo long. It's insane. I remember when we'd play Drive Thru and other weird games, and play in the mud, and ride bikes...and family dinners, driving to school with our parents...and alas, we have weathered alllll those years of drama and come out on top! You're a pretty amazing guy, and who ever lands you (after she goes through me, of course) will be a lucky girl. We pretty much have more memories together than I can even remember, but I cherish every single one. Thank you for being there every time I've called in tears, and even when we just shoot the shit and drink booze. I always wished I had a brother...but I already have an amazing one :)
10.) Another funny one. We met a few years back and weren't friends. And then out of no where, we're friends. It's been great getting to know you, and I admire your perseverence and ability to trudge through all the shit that is being put on you right now. Even when you're down, you're up. I don't know how you do it; your strength is so incredibly inspiring, and it reminds me to put my own shit in perspective. Thank you for being there for me this summer when my life was (seemingly) falling apart. It was a huge blessing in my life to have you there to listen. Keep your chin up (wink!)
11.) Deeez ez cccrraaap! 8 am classes. Sleeping wayyy too late, shopping, eating, crying, music, and one of the best people I've met. You watched me going through a very "transitional" part of my life. I remember when a certain boy at I broke up at the very beginning when I met you, and I was laying on my bed in tears for hours, and you just let me get it all out. You always lend a sympathetic ear, and somehow, it makes me feel like it's going to get better. I still the letter you wrote me the day I left school. I remember it made me cry. Thank you for helping me through that year. I honestly couldn't have done it without you.
12.) There is way too much to say about you on here. It's hard to forget, even though part of me wants to. But I suppose you don't spend that much time and love on someone and then push the "delete" button and pretend it didn't happen. I look back on it like a photo album and remember the times we had, and thank God for the chance to experience and feel everything that we did. I'll never forget you.
13.) I remember when you first introduced yourself to me. I thought you were soooo cute. And then I got to know you, and youre one of the most driven and interesting people I've met. I look at all the negativity you face doing what you've chosen to do with your life and all the adversity you've overcome and I have so much respect. Watching you on stage puts such a smile on my face (which I'm sure you can see among the sea of faces :) and I remember the first show I saw you perform at, you even introduced me and it was so embarassing, but at least I can say I knew you before you were famous. You know you can do it. I know you can do it. And thank you so much for being such an amazing friend when I needed it.
1.) You. Where do I begin with you? I know you already know I'm talking about you, because you know you're always on my mind. If I think back to before we met, and who I was, it doesn't even seem like it was me. I feel like I was just walking around in a body that looked like mine, with a face like mine, but I have since become the me I've wanted to become since as far back as I can remember. You have helped me to become that girl. And no matter where we go from here, I will always look at you with immense appreciation for your love and support. I will be here for you, do anything for you, and show you the same things in your own life that you've allowed me to see in my own. You've helped me to see what is important, and how amazingly beautiful life can be. You are a true gift to the world, and a blessing in my life. I love you.
2.) Squares. Circles. Triangles. That blank stare that caught my attention and told me that you so needed someone who loved you to come and take you in their arms and tell you how amazing and strong you are. Because you were. And you are. I wish I could give you one day in my body so you could see how I see you, through my eyes, and know what a true inspiration you are. I remember how small you seemed to me. How when you laughed it was an event for me. And now, it is rare to not hear your laugh. It makes me cry to think about how far you've come, all you've faced, and everything you have made for yourself, without letting the hard times become who you are. You and I have been through the shitter and heaven in the same week. I know we will be friends until the day we die. And I can't even begin to explain how happy that makes me. Here's to making our dreams come true.
3.) I feel like everytime I sit down to write to you (and believe me, this isn't the first time I've try to say these things...), I end up saying the same thing over and over. But there is no harm in repeating things that are true. I wish for you so much happiness and love that you don't know where to put it all. That you can stare yourself down and say "Damnnn, I am a pretty incredible person" and believe it. That you will believe in your intelligence and beauty and strength, and not have to look outside yourself to see it. You have everything inside you to make the life you want and the person you want to be. I will be here to show you that when you forget, I will sing you your song if you forget the words. But you have to write it for yourself. I adore who you are and I believe you will see that in yourself one day as well. And when you do, I'll still be here. No matter what.
4.) We used to loathe each other. Or at least, we pretended we did until we made up and made noises through the vents when were in time outs. You constantly amaze me with your wisdom and brilliance. The woman you are becoming just blows me away. And I get to say, "yeah, that's MY sister". I look up to you (even though you're shorter!) and am so proud of you and your life. You are one of the best people I know, with the best heart and I love to learn from you. Thank you for allowing me to be me...I know it's been rough at times, but your undying loyalty has been one of the most meaningful things anyone has ever given to me. I love you more than you know.
5.) I remember when I first met you and I totally thought you were a cocky asshole who knew he was awesome and decided everyone else should know too. But as I've grown to understand you and be friend you, I see so much more than the surface "performer" that I first met. You are a wonderful, kind, sensitive, and understanding person who will go so far in life that you will even surprise yourself. I have so much faith in you and who you are, and cannot even wait to see where your talents and passion take you. Thank you for the memories, and for being a great husband (wink wink).
6.) Ohhhh you. It's funny because we don't remember how we got to be friends, but we still manage to have the most fun together, even though we don't see each other nearly enough! I remember the night of Dr. Pepper on my balcony, and how in the hell "moose" came about just totally slips my mind...But regardless. We had such a great time rockin' up that city of S-to-the-alem, and I'm so glad we still talk and hang out and manage to find humor in the weirdest things. I'm so thankful for how much you make me laugh :) You are so beautiful and talented...don't let anyone hold you down.
7.) Honestly, I'd have to say you hurt me more than anyone ever has. And for a while, I resented you for poisoning me with your words and actions. But the thing is that I am so thankful for the experience I had with you, and I see the good in you that I always told you was there. Even when you would tell me you were worth nothing and I shouldn't waste my time with you, I knew you were worth so much more than you were giving yourself credit for. I wanted to show you, but you didn't want to see. And now that we can both look back and smile, and talk without the tears or tension, I thank you for helping me shape my life and what and who I want to be. I am SO happy for you and your accomplishments, and even if we never talk again, I have complete faith that you know exactly how much I respect you.
8.) I didn't really know you in high school. I knew who you were. You were always real cool and so good at everything that I just kind of assumed we'd never get along. But ironically, we did. I remember once we were driving in your car and it was raining, and you were a senior and I was a junior, and where we were going, I have no idea. But I do remember the moment I realized we were really similar. We both love the spotlight. Both refuse to be ruled by mediocrity. And both just want to be loved unconditionally without sacrificing ourselves for that feeling. I get that about you, and you inspire me to not be just "okay", but to be "the best". And just for the record, you are pretty fucking amazing.
9.) We've known eachother soooo long. It's insane. I remember when we'd play Drive Thru and other weird games, and play in the mud, and ride bikes...and family dinners, driving to school with our parents...and alas, we have weathered alllll those years of drama and come out on top! You're a pretty amazing guy, and who ever lands you (after she goes through me, of course) will be a lucky girl. We pretty much have more memories together than I can even remember, but I cherish every single one. Thank you for being there every time I've called in tears, and even when we just shoot the shit and drink booze. I always wished I had a brother...but I already have an amazing one :)
10.) Another funny one. We met a few years back and weren't friends. And then out of no where, we're friends. It's been great getting to know you, and I admire your perseverence and ability to trudge through all the shit that is being put on you right now. Even when you're down, you're up. I don't know how you do it; your strength is so incredibly inspiring, and it reminds me to put my own shit in perspective. Thank you for being there for me this summer when my life was (seemingly) falling apart. It was a huge blessing in my life to have you there to listen. Keep your chin up (wink!)
11.) Deeez ez cccrraaap! 8 am classes. Sleeping wayyy too late, shopping, eating, crying, music, and one of the best people I've met. You watched me going through a very "transitional" part of my life. I remember when a certain boy at I broke up at the very beginning when I met you, and I was laying on my bed in tears for hours, and you just let me get it all out. You always lend a sympathetic ear, and somehow, it makes me feel like it's going to get better. I still the letter you wrote me the day I left school. I remember it made me cry. Thank you for helping me through that year. I honestly couldn't have done it without you.
12.) There is way too much to say about you on here. It's hard to forget, even though part of me wants to. But I suppose you don't spend that much time and love on someone and then push the "delete" button and pretend it didn't happen. I look back on it like a photo album and remember the times we had, and thank God for the chance to experience and feel everything that we did. I'll never forget you.
13.) I remember when you first introduced yourself to me. I thought you were soooo cute. And then I got to know you, and youre one of the most driven and interesting people I've met. I look at all the negativity you face doing what you've chosen to do with your life and all the adversity you've overcome and I have so much respect. Watching you on stage puts such a smile on my face (which I'm sure you can see among the sea of faces :) and I remember the first show I saw you perform at, you even introduced me and it was so embarassing, but at least I can say I knew you before you were famous. You know you can do it. I know you can do it. And thank you so much for being such an amazing friend when I needed it.