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every time i talk to my mom, she gets more and more afraid that i'll never grow up because people scare me. i don't want to be around them. i don't care if that's childish, she should leave me the fuck alone about it. i know i have to get a fucking job, but can't i choose it? that is one of the benefits of being an adult-you get to make decisions! it's not being childish to not want a certain job. and she's threatening to take stuff away if i don't get my act together. what am i doing wrong besides not giving a shit about school (which is definitely nothing new)? i think i'll just go have sex with random people in exchange for heroine. then she can tell me to get my fucking act together.
i wish she would lay off. i'm smarter than she thinks. i know what i need to do. i don't need her to tell me.

my dad and i are getting along.

this is weird.