::so much to do::
Dear Journal,
gah so much to do. I've slacked so much and I know why I have...just need to work on fixing it. I am scared of all the changes and the uncertainty of the outcomes. I start worrying over what I need to get done instead of just doing it. I believe it comes from my feeling for lack of accomplishment. I wish my parents had praised me a bit more growing up. or at least encouraged me. I think that is it the big one I needed. The few things I really remember treasuring, they tended to not understand. It makes me feel like what I do do won't be accepted so why bother, or that it won't be good enough no matter how well I personally know its done.
Well on that note I need to get some shit accomplished! Life is too damn short and I have known exactly what I've wanted to do and how to go about it...I've just been to scared to do it.
-jess
gah so much to do. I've slacked so much and I know why I have...just need to work on fixing it. I am scared of all the changes and the uncertainty of the outcomes. I start worrying over what I need to get done instead of just doing it. I believe it comes from my feeling for lack of accomplishment. I wish my parents had praised me a bit more growing up. or at least encouraged me. I think that is it the big one I needed. The few things I really remember treasuring, they tended to not understand. It makes me feel like what I do do won't be accepted so why bother, or that it won't be good enough no matter how well I personally know its done.
Well on that note I need to get some shit accomplished! Life is too damn short and I have known exactly what I've wanted to do and how to go about it...I've just been to scared to do it.
-jess