::been a while::
Dear Journal,
I felt that needed to catch up on a few things.
I got my nails done for the first time and i love them =] I would show a picture but my cameras dead =/ not that it would matter since they've already started growing out and i've chipped them a good bit at work =/ but still i really like them and am deffinitally going to go back to get the re done...probably next week.
I really didn't expect much on v-day. expecially with how paul has been acting but it turned out romantic =] i worked all of valintinesday til almost ten. Came home and saw no sign......wait let me back track to say how that day started~~~~woke up at around 10 went to go get some breakfast foods but my car wouldn't start.....pauls parents came over to help and we went with them to go eat right before i had to be at work....dropped my work shirt in a poodle of yellow mud at the resturant....and that was alll on top of paul being an ass about having to eat dinner with my mom the night before....needless to say the day was sucking~~~~now back to after work. we ate mc d's i saw no signs of v-day and i started to get pissed. Paul suggested a I take a shower and relax. When opening the shower curtian i found a bath already drawn, a single rose, and a candle going. turning around i found paul holding a bottle of plum wine and a wine glass. =] I became happy inabout 2 seconds. We went to eat thai the next day. =] it turned out wayyy better than i thought at first. I feel bad for having doubts but if you knew him you'd understand.
My hours are going more smoothly at work though i did work 24hours nearly straight that sunday through monday. aero-sunday7pm-1am toys-mon4am-9:30am toys-mon11am-6pm and then the next day was a double too. but hell it means that i can make my bills tis month and i'm not going to complain.
My mom claimed me on her taxes which led to me getting jack shit back. today though we struct a deal and she gave me 500 of hers. honestly i was aiming for more but i'll take it for this year.
she's such a selfish person. today when i went to talk to her about it she started going on and on about 'the mother curse' where how bad you treat your parents will be given back 10 fold in your children. she said that when she moved out she saw this disabilty check her father recieved as her money(how i don't know) and they gave it to her even though it led to them putting up a second morgage on their house. she compared that to our situation where she SELFISHLY claimed ME even though she doesn't support me because it would hurt her if she didn't. instead i'm living paycheck to paycheack supporting my slef litterally not having a life when i should be considering my age. at this age i should be in school supported by my parents working a little on the side to by food and gas, going out partying going on trips, getting into trouble, and such. i should be living.I have weeks when i work 60 hours(though at the moment retail is slow and im maxing at 40) and generally even now i go days with only a few hours of sleep trying to make all the hours i can at work. gyuhsfnomkadl, wow i was totally cool a few minutes ago but thinking back on things now i'm really pissed my mom is a selfish bitch.
i had more to write but i want to cool down first.
jessie.
I felt that needed to catch up on a few things.
I got my nails done for the first time and i love them =] I would show a picture but my cameras dead =/ not that it would matter since they've already started growing out and i've chipped them a good bit at work =/ but still i really like them and am deffinitally going to go back to get the re done...probably next week.
I really didn't expect much on v-day. expecially with how paul has been acting but it turned out romantic =] i worked all of valintinesday til almost ten. Came home and saw no sign......wait let me back track to say how that day started~~~~woke up at around 10 went to go get some breakfast foods but my car wouldn't start.....pauls parents came over to help and we went with them to go eat right before i had to be at work....dropped my work shirt in a poodle of yellow mud at the resturant....and that was alll on top of paul being an ass about having to eat dinner with my mom the night before....needless to say the day was sucking~~~~now back to after work. we ate mc d's i saw no signs of v-day and i started to get pissed. Paul suggested a I take a shower and relax. When opening the shower curtian i found a bath already drawn, a single rose, and a candle going. turning around i found paul holding a bottle of plum wine and a wine glass. =] I became happy inabout 2 seconds. We went to eat thai the next day. =] it turned out wayyy better than i thought at first. I feel bad for having doubts but if you knew him you'd understand.
My hours are going more smoothly at work though i did work 24hours nearly straight that sunday through monday. aero-sunday7pm-1am toys-mon4am-9:30am toys-mon11am-6pm and then the next day was a double too. but hell it means that i can make my bills tis month and i'm not going to complain.
My mom claimed me on her taxes which led to me getting jack shit back. today though we struct a deal and she gave me 500 of hers. honestly i was aiming for more but i'll take it for this year.
she's such a selfish person. today when i went to talk to her about it she started going on and on about 'the mother curse' where how bad you treat your parents will be given back 10 fold in your children. she said that when she moved out she saw this disabilty check her father recieved as her money(how i don't know) and they gave it to her even though it led to them putting up a second morgage on their house. she compared that to our situation where she SELFISHLY claimed ME even though she doesn't support me because it would hurt her if she didn't. instead i'm living paycheck to paycheack supporting my slef litterally not having a life when i should be considering my age. at this age i should be in school supported by my parents working a little on the side to by food and gas, going out partying going on trips, getting into trouble, and such. i should be living.I have weeks when i work 60 hours(though at the moment retail is slow and im maxing at 40) and generally even now i go days with only a few hours of sleep trying to make all the hours i can at work. gyuhsfnomkadl, wow i was totally cool a few minutes ago but thinking back on things now i'm really pissed my mom is a selfish bitch.
i had more to write but i want to cool down first.
jessie.