Nov 07, 2005 13:06
why all of a sudden am i back at square one? i was certian that i found what i wanted to do and where i wanted to go and had a plan. and now it's time to re-register and i am left with no idea, no thoughts, no inspiration. i have 2 days to decide my life's goals. i think that's a little short notice. we should've gotton something in the mail saying "hey asshole! start thinking about the rest of your life right now! or else you'll fuck everything up! ha!"
i don't want to quit school cuz that would be gay, but i don't know what to do. i feel like i'm back in senior year just bein like "uhhhhh....duuuhhhhh....i dunno" cuz i'm not that happy here so i'm pretty sure i want to leave, but i don't know where i want to go or what i want to go into cuz radiology isn't excatly what i thought it was. Renee and i should make that damn book. it would be a book filled with thousands of career ideas with a detailed discription after each one. no gimmicks or trying to sell you for this postion wording, just straight up, this is what this job entitles shit.
i dont even know what i want to do with my hair right now. i'm only 18. i shouldn't be pressured with making my entire life's discions right now. i haven't even really begun living yet.
i learned how to play poker the other day. it's really fun and i can understand how it is so addicting. i think i still love euchre more though.
i'm bored. and confoosed. one bored and confoosed child am i. fuck waiting for summer, let's just go right now erka. lol. yeah right that be boring as hell. going everywhere when there's only snow on the ground. shit.