Where did I go wrong?

[doinitwitrythem]

..I don't....I dont know what to say?How do you sum up years of your life into a summery and be content with that?How do you sum up any proof of your children's existance into this entry and etch their existance and their memory into everyone else's mind, how do you keep their faces from fading in your mind?How do you keep the photo from not

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[tj_h]

Zaccy. Please don't cry. Just please. I'm coming i'm coming ok. Big bro's on his way. It's ok, the sky isn't falling not today. I'll hold it up for you today. Just don't give up on me now. Dont' give up!

Breathe zaccy breathe. Everything will be ok, it has to be. Just breathe please zac don't leave me too.

[doinitwitrythem]

Tay?What do I...what do I do?I cant breathe, I...I cant even catch my breath...I fill like I've forgotten to breathe right, I feel like I have to learn it all over again.Teach it to me all over again taytay...please.

How does a man goes from 4 kids down to just one in a matter of hours?How?God...I..how?I...how do I do this Taybear? God..please...help me.They all are gone..they aren't coming back Tay..it isnt just a dream,I woke up and woke up and woke up and it was still true..all of it...its all really happening *bawls and bawls and bawls his eyes swollen and bloodshot*. I was suppose to protect them.Maybe I should have taken her more seriously?Maybe I shouldnt have yelled at her and was too hard on her?

*rocks back and forth crying* tay...taytay...I NEEEEEEEEEEEEED YOUUUUU, I NEEEEED YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!*howels*

[tj_h]

I'm Coming Zac! I'm On My Way! I'll teach you how to breathe again. I'll hold u and everything won't hurt as much ok? Everything'll not feel like the sky is falling. Cuz i'll be there.

Just hold on for me zaccy. Hold on.

[doinitwitrythem]

I ..I need you big bubby..I need you.I need you like I needed mommy.

[tj_h]

I know zaccy, i got you, mommy's here too. watching you, crying for you. Watching ur babies careful. She's here with you zac, she hasn't left you.