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[doinitwitrythem]

So...yeah...that's right...my ass is kicked to the curb for the damn moment.Im at kate's right now,living here for the moment.What's to figure huh?Its not like I can really make this any fucking worse.Natalie's got her own speculations whether I like them or not.And its not like we can talk them out..because she cant even fucking look at me,

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[doinitwitrythem]

Why does she want some space though nikki?I mean usually its understandable when a woman wants her space because you just got in a HUGE fight and everything else and its for the best interest..but Nikki..we didnt get into a huge fight...this came out of nowhere..she didnt even ask me for space, she didnt even really talk to me.I had to hear it through the great vine.Nikki, she dont communicate with me anymore.Just gets angry, or cries...she tells tay i'd only make it worse.How is that natural?Damn it..I want to be there for my baby, even while its in her stomach..i want to help her because I did this to her.And im trying to take responsibility.What did I miss?Since when does someone strongly despise someone because they got you pregnant?I..I just dont understand.I know that taylor wouldnt do that to me, its not that I dont trust him..or that I dont trust her.I ...damn it..I dont know exactly how to explain it.Damn it!Its so frustrating.Grrr.I ..I love Kate?What...wait..what are you talking about?What makes you think im still in love with Kate?I didnt say that.We havent done anything.I dont understand.???huh?

There's always room for a second love?Well then...no offense...but why then?Why do you believe there is Isaac and ONLY isaac?No offense, but sometimes your own advice is the best advice.Thank you for that..I appreciate you being here for me.Nikki..thank you.Really!Kate and I would love to see you, of course, if you just want girl time though, id gladly take the kids out to chucky cheese or whatever so you guys can bond I guess.Lol.Though ill be jealous.Lol.But yeah, I dont know, im probably over reacting.Im just trying to prepare myself for it to go either way,even if its not the way id hoped.So yeah.I guess thats what im doing.Yeah..whoever the man is..he's a lucky man..whether he knows it or not.I hope he knows he cant take my place in my kids's heart though.And I absolutly LOVE this time with my children, I didnt know how badly I missed them until now.

Thanks.Of course our babies are lookers..I mean..ex model and Zac hanson.YOU KNOW IT!lol *winks*

[_xonikkiox_]

who knows why she wants some space... women are just liek that sometimes. women don't need a reason to need space. well zac just let her work out her issues. she might not want to be around you right now. maybe she feels guilty? who knows. but you shouldn't get all worried over this. i mean don't get yourself all worked up over it okay? it's not natural. but who knows whats going on in her head right now. i know you want to be there for your baby...and i think you should be there for him but you can't do that till she gets over whatever it is thats bothering her. she doesn't despise you. it is frustrating.. your right but life is. i'm not saying your in love with her Zac..im saying theres a part of you that still loves her and always will. i know you haven't done anything i didnt say you did.

there is always room for a second love. zac i dont believe theres only ike. i know theres other people out there. i might be opened to that sometime in the future but not right now. i don't want to be with anyone. i think i just need to be single for awhile and take care of my boys. your welcome... you dont have to thank me i wanna be here for you i mean what are friends for eh? nah i'd like to see both of you and the kids.. i havent seen any of you in a long while. haha. you are over reacting but thats okay. and you shouldn't perpare yourself for something that may not happen. he will be a very lucky man and i dont think he'd try to take your place. good! im glad you having some good times.

haha. i think its really the ex-model more than you. *giggles*

[doinitwitrythem]

Yeah..you aint kidding.Like me and Tay have both decided..woman are all sorts of complicated these days.Hahaha.But you know what?Im done stressing it nikki, its getting the best of me and I was just getting on tays ass about that crap, I mean looking at tay, I see what its done..and damn, I could only imagine I look like that too.Seriously, just slap my silly ass.Lol.That's it..me and Tay are going out and drinking and just getting cought up with old times and having fun getting shit faced and having fun doing it and being happy and not going to feel the least bit bad about it.It will just be the two of us so it wont get chaotic, we might get rambunxious though..I mean like rough housing and stuff, but boys will be boys.You know?FUCK i've been waiting for this forever.I need to kick back a few brew-ha's with my bro..he's the best at it..I mean..without being an alchohalic or anything lol he just knows how to hold his alchohal.Sorry man, i was just hoping nobody was implying anything because didnt want to set natalie off again.Lol.

As long as you can say that right there, that you may be opened to the possability of it in the future..I know your healthy and those are healthy thoughts..I know your on the road to recovery and not thinking COMPLETELY irrational.

HEYYYYY thats SOO mean *pouts*Your just jealous they have my big poofy lips and your boys dont.Neener neener.

[_xonikkiox_]

yeah...us women folk are very confusing. good. you should be done stressing it. you shouldn't have stressed it to begin with. well i'm glad yall are going out and going to hang out and bond and all that good stuff. it's been along time coming. and don't yall get into ANY trouble. i know you 2 fuckers when you get together. HA. wont get chaotic..with you and tay. LIAR. well good. you both deserve a night out or a night off... getting fucked up and shit. i understand completely. i know you've been waiting forever for this so thats why i'm really happy its happening. i just dont like alcohol anymore...not after what i've seen it done to ike. i'm never drinking again. well we wasn't i know your not in love with her anymore and that your not going to do anything with her. you love nat now and you'd never do anything to hurt her. i know this man.

i can say it but like i said it's going to be probably a long ways off. i have some heatlhy thoughts and some really unhealthy thoughts. im not on the road to recovery yet.. its going to be a long hard road and im not ready to travel it just yet. i'm not completely irrational yet..give me time.

haha. its not mean. i promise. no im not jealous of your big poofy lips as long as they keep Tays eyes... i love his eyes... and the boys look great with them. so i dont need you big poofy lips

[doinitwitrythem]

Flippen TELL me about.Well ..nah dont.Lol I doubt even you could, and that'd probably just confuse me all the more..trying to get into a dang womans mind..plus..id end up more like tay..and crossing my legs wearing scarfs*shutters at the thoughts*..oh wow..um NO.lol.

Trouble?Psh...nah..we are startsky and hutch man.And we dont go looking for trouble, trouble finds US.haha bet that makes you feel a TON better?Haha..nikki im just pullin your leg lol.

Thanks for being so fucking awesome about this though, fucking seriously..lol Tay needs to marry your ass.

..haha...just kidding, just kidding.But seriously I wish my ole lady was as awesome about this stuff as you are.She'd make me feel bad about this somehow.

its alright, we wont let it consume us like it did with ike.We control the alchohal it dont control us.Alright?

of course..of course.Im just saying, anything..is possible.

Oh come on he may have the peircing crystal blue eyes that look through you, but I dont know..my big poofy lips has gotten me plenty ladys back in the day lol.You know that if you could,you'd wish they had both.Mhm..now THAT would be a perfect kid.Shiet.Lol move over Brad pitt.Lmao.

[_xonikkiox_]

aww..tay is kind of girly...but then thats part of his charm...haha..womens minds aren't to be played with...mens minds are easier. there's nothing wrong with tay and his scarfs. oh wow..i just had a naughty thought. *giggles*

you 2 are the biggest trouble makers. haha. have bout this? yall and trouble meet in the middle. no that doesn't make me feel better... don't do anything stupid now. i'll beat you both senseless if you do. okay?

haha. its not like you all need my approval to go out and get smashed. i just live there. haha. me and tay married...i dont likely seeing that happening.

i know your kidding. well maybe your ol lady would be awesome with it if she didnt have your FETUS growing in her and she can't go with you. i'd make you feel bad to sucker. not really lol. it didn't bother me when ike started doing it..but then he did it maybe once or twice a month then...it just started getting longer. but i dont need to thikn about that.

i don't think ike wanted it to comsume him either. well when your drunk the alcohol controls you. so :oP

your right anything is possible..like maybe..a couple of years down the road..2 unlikely people will get together.

well i'd take the piercing crystal blues eyes and his SMILE any day over your big poofy lips. just his smile can make me weak at the knees. and the little grin he does.MMMMMMMM. lol wow. i need to stop. maybe if they had his eyes and your lips...that might work..just depends... heh.

[doinitwitrythem]

Yeah he is kind of girly.Oh yeah?So being fem really does work with the ladies?Shit...i've been doing this ALL wrong.Haha.So that's why all his friends are girls and the ladys always come to him when they are upset, because he understands and because he knows all the gossip.LMFAO.Naughty thoughts huh nik?*smirks* does it envolve bed posts too?Haha..yep, your just like one of the guys lol..sex on the brain.We are all sexually deprived.

But bad boys are the hottest, right?Lol.Otherwise we are just geeks.Lol.Nah we aint going to do anything stupid, nothing at the expense of others.Im so fucking excited though seriously!

Uh..yeah we DO need your approval..or Tay does at least.Its common decency..plus, your the one that has to deal with our ass's when we are coming through the house to get to the basement.Lol.I do say though...dont take anything we say seriously if we like flirt with you alright?Its the alchohal talking.k?We will try and steer clear of you.Plus I do pretty good controling myself.Im glad tay is putting up a blow up doll..oops...did I just say that out loud?I mean..matress for me haha, because I dont think I should be going to kate's drunk.Lol.That girl is too much of a temptress.Not that I like her like that you know?I mean I have myself a um, a beautiful wife at home.

Im not ike.*Sticks tongue out* so its DIFFERENT for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.So there.

MAYBE?yayyyy *starts jumping up and down like a teeny* I wonder who that could be?Are you making gestures towards me again?HAHA j/k,j/k.Man I really really wish Natalie would agree to make up, or at least pretend...oh man..oh man...this equalls the BEST fucking make up sex ever ever ever when we do finally make up, the bigger the fight..the better the sex.SHIEEEEEEEEEETTTT so there IS a positive to this.

Hey, you just dont like admitting to your defeats so there.I mean,Kate LOVES our babies having my big poofy lips.Poor little ones get fricken smothered with kisses because of it haha and she's always squeezing them together to look like a fishy face haha, my son just wrinkles up his nose and pouts saying moooooooooooooooooooooooooooommmmmm.Lol.Guess he dont like it too much lol.Im just like, its okay son, I had to deal with it too, all the time man, all the time.Lmao.

There aint no maybe...admit it...admit it.Lol.

[tj_h]

GIRLY?! EXCUSE ME?! i'm so hurt *sniffles* i ain't girly and watch it i might actually use those scarfs on you *winks* HAHAHA

You know u love my piercing blue eyes, zac funky brown eyes could never match it and my lip being bitten are a better than zac lame ass big puffy lips, especcialy when he's drunk and can't manage them properly!! Haha Come on nikki, u know i'm better *smirks*

[_xonikkiox_]

ha! i like that your kind of girly so yeah! *giggles* heeeeeeeey i said i liked the scarfs promises promises tay... hehehe. i really don't think i'd mind that.

i know i love your eyes.. aww. he has pretty eyes too..yours are just...beautiful. i'd like to nibble on your bottem lip..heh. don't mind me. awww... your not better...your just different. your both good looking guys.

[tj_h]

NO no, we're not the same but different. You would rather ur boys look like him? huh? cuz that's wat you saying i'm not better than him. lol

You can nibble my lip whenever u want, it might like the change from me nibbling on it*laughs*