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[doinitwitrythem]

So...yeah...that's right...my ass is kicked to the curb for the damn moment.Im at kate's right now,living here for the moment.What's to figure huh?Its not like I can really make this any fucking worse.Natalie's got her own speculations whether I like them or not.And its not like we can talk them out..because she cant even fucking look at me,

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[doinitwitrythem]

Thank you for that Katiebelle,thank you for that glimmer of hope!Even though we had our share of tough times Kate, you always could give me some hope too.For instance,our children and an eye opener as far as my job went.I wish I could take what you've said to heart and not have a worry in the world Kate...unfortunately, I think I might have too much common sense for my own good and im sure you'd agree there.I just wonder if there is something about me that just cant keep a womans attention for longer then a couple years.Because if I had been able to, i'd never lost you.I mean..not lost you, because fortunately I still have you as a wonderful friend and an even more wonderful mother to our children..but..well...you know what I mean.The thing is Kate...she...she wont accept any chance of me having a bond like that with you..she thinks of it as just as well as cheating.And gets angry,but im not able to confront her about her and Taylor and god forbid I be able to understand.=0( It just..it sucks.Im pulling my damn hair out.You really consider us to have a bond?I..I didnt think you thought of us like that anymore,because lets face it..I havent shown you much respect or been much of a father at all lately either.Im lucky you havent just pushed my ass out of your life for good.

Im glad to have you Kate.That's for good and damn sure.When all this shit goes crazy and down hill, you always make good points and give me a slap in the face with a dose of reality ..and make me smile too.

Lol..I hate it when your right.You know that?Hahahaha.

Kate?Do you really like me being here?I mean...for the longest time, I thought you wanted to get as far away from me as possible..I thought..I thought that you hated living with me.And all this time,i'd forgotten what it was like for us all to live together.To go to sleep on the couch with our lil ones cuddled up with me and us crashed out hard as you take a picture.And waking up to them jumping on my belly.Lol.God...I missed it, and to think i'd almost forgotten all that.Kate...thank you for that.

Thank you!