High as a motha fuckin kite

[doinitwitrythem]

So like fuckin WOW I'm feeling so fuckin GOOD!I mean seriously, im fuckin floating, well okay not floating but I just feel numb and it feels good..it feels fuckin,....great actually!Better then the usual annoying pain in your heart you know?HA..oh god lol, I havent felt this fuckin great in for fuckin ever.Oh damn!Im commin down!Ha, I said to hell

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[zacsdreamgirlkt]

zac? omigod... zac no *tears up* this isn't you...... wat have you been taking? why are u taking that stuff? the twins need you! I need you! nat needs you!

Omigosh.... i can't take this *starts crying* not zac, no this isn't happening

[doinitwitrythem]

Baby, no you can just call me Zac and stuff lol, im not great enough to be called god.Lol though its flattering and stuff babe, dont get me wrong.Ha.

Awe hunny dont you cry tonight,not when we should be happy.Be happy babe, be happy!Im happy so why not you sweet little darlin?Your smile is to die for.It cant just go into hibronation.Now THAT would be sad.

Im just takin some pixi dust.WEEEEE I can fly!Woooo. Im here and I aint going nowhere, dont you guys just worry okay?I've never been better.Relaxxxx calm urselfs.

Kateybelle im herrrrrrrrrre ur zaccy is hereeee.

[zacsdreamgirlkt]

*keeps crying* ur not my zaccy when ur like this. Not when ur high...... i can't believe ur getting high... i just..... zac don't touch that stuff... please? promise me ok?

*sniffles* i hate seeing you like this

[doinitwitrythem]

WHAT in tha warlldddddddddd is gowin on with u girls?Ur so emotional and why are you guys spending ur life crying when you can be happy and not mad get glad.Hahaha. LIke what babe? Im not being like nothing.haha.

Why not?Why can't I?Shit was going downhill and it was going fast I mean...I lost yet ANOTHER child after pretty much just losing Maddie, my bro is all down and shit he thinks he's gonna lose his baby girl who sits in the hospital as we speak,your in the fuckin hospital with holes in ur stomach and havent even seen our baby girl,Natalie cheated on me and I cheated on her...woo fuckin hoo...nah no good it wont do,shit man that right there is enough to get ANYONE depressed ha.See now you see why I just used just a little uplifter..it wont do any harm.

Nah dont cry babe, just dont cry dry your pretty little eyes.

[zacsdreamgirlkt]

zac, i lost my baby boy too... and i haven't seen my little girl..... i haven't seen faith maddison yet. Yes that's wat i'm calling her. Your not the only one hurting..... and ur hurting me and everyone else when ur high. You hurt us.....

And u hurt me. I'm sorry u cheated on nat with me. I'm sorry i needed you to help me. I'm sorry i was nothing but a burden i'm sorry *sobs* but don't hurtself and everyone else by getting high.... don't let the twins see you like this..... please? don't let them see their daddy like this..... it's bad enough they have to come and see their mommy in the hospital *wipes her eyes drying her cheeks as they are quickly replaced by new tears*

[doinitwitrythem]

I knowwww baby and thats why you cant be all crying and stuff. Because then it gets you down and hating life and our baby boy wouldnt want that now would he?I dont think so.So cheer up slugger.Awe she's named now?Babe how precious is that?As precious as her and her tiny little fist and feetsies and everything else lol.How am I hurting you?Im not trying to hurt anyone but its what I need to feel good and shit ya know?It makes me numb.

Dont be sry babe, she fuckin cheated on me so I dont have to be sorry and neither do you so dont be sorry.I mean,it felt kind of nice actually and stuff because yeah there is still some passion there and stuff but yeah woah I feel good right now haha im rollin.Your not a burden baby not at all *lifts ur head and kisses ur soft lips*please princess cheer up

[zacsdreamgirlkt]

zac.... ur not a numb person. U have so much love and compassion and feeling. Don't let this drug numb out everything me and everyone else loves about you.
Oh baby boy wouldn't want his dad hiding behind drugs to make himself numb out. He would want his daddy to love and trust and be compassionate and passionate. He wouldn't want his daddy not to feel. And either does faith.....

Please zac..... don't cry me when ur high..... cuz u'll take it back then u'll hurt me even more. Not to mention u did something with avery. that's not the man i loved.... love.....loved wateva.... this isn't the zac i know. Please..... wats going on with you? pelase please please... talk to me? please *sniffles as tears keep pouring*

[doinitwitrythem]

I didnt say I was dumb*laughs, goes back and re-reads it*woah..ooops haha my bad..I mean...oh numb.Yeah, I never was a numb person and I think that was my problem babez, it kinda hurt and shit you know?Seriously.Awe babez isnt that sweet...but I still do I just dont have to be a little bitch now because im all sad and mad and shit ya know?Lol.

Kate, please, dont do that, please dont pull that card on me baby, I need this...please dont try and guilt me with our baby boy,come on thats not fare.I love that boy.

Take it back?Nah, now why would I go and do a thing like that? Why dont you like this Zac better?He's not all depressed all the time.That was no fun.Come on guys, be happy.Why arent you seeing it the way I am?

[zacsdreamgirlkt]

i'm not trying to guilt you, i'm trying to get you to see the truth. Our baby boy wouldn't be wanting you like that. Please?

I loved the other zac better.... cuz he was real... he had real feelings. HE was perfect the way he was *poutz and sniffles*

by the way..... i'm outta the hospital

[doinitwitrythem]

Maybe if our baby boy was still around and not 6 feet under in a coffin in a size I didnt even KNOW they fuckin made that small..I wouldnt have to be like this...but for right now its the only thing that takes the pain away babe.

Babe why u talk like im gone?Im still here and in the flesh.

YOU ARE???Im commin to see you, besides nats being a bitch and dont want me home tonight.Whatever.*rolls eyes*

[tj_h]

zac...... while ur high, it's like ur gone *a few tears roll down her cheeks*

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[zacsdreamgirlkt]

shit that was supposed to be kate lol

[doinitwitrythem]

Baby but im not, im still here..you make it how you want it to be baby, so make the best of it.Im more here then I ever was..I feel..I feel so alive for the very first time.Im not dead baby.

[zacsdreamgirlkt]

u may feel it, but ur not acting it. Ur acting more dead then i've ever seen you. How are we supposed to act baby? i mean zac?..... we don't like seeing you like this.

please don't do this.... please?

[doinitwitrythem]

Im not acting it?Baby who's acting?Lol.I never said I was an actor lol FUCK I suck at acting i'll stick to the music lol.

do what?Ha

[zacsdreamgirlkt]

we're just going around in circles....

no more zac... no more