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I'm shameless, when it comes to loving you. I'll do anything you want me to, I'll do anything at all. And I'm standing here for all the world to see, oh baby that's what's left of me, and you're now very far to fall.
You know now I'm not a man who's ever been insecure about the world i've been living in. I don't break easy, I have my pride, but you keep making me satisfied.
And I'm shameless, honey i don't have a prayer, cause everytime i see you standing there, i go down upon my knees. and i'm changing, i swore i'd never compromise, oh but you convince me otherwise. i'll do anything to please.
you see in all my life, i never found, what i couldn't resist, what i couldn't turn down. i could walk away from anyone i ever knew, but i can't walk away from you...
i have never let anything have this much control over me, i work too hard to call my life my own. and i've made myself a world and it's worked so perfectly, but it's your world now, i can't refuse, i've never had so much to lose.
you know it should be easy for a man who's strong, to say he's sorry or admit when he was wrong. i never lost anything i ever missed, but I'VE NEVER BEEN IN LOVE LIKE THIS
and i'm shameless, cause I DON'T HAVE THE POWER NOW, and i DON'T WANT IT ANYHOW it, so i gotta let it go. i'm shameless, shameless as a man can be, you can make a total fool of me, i just wanted you to know. that i'm shameless.
those are the lyrics to the song i was singing at my house months ago while he was there. i knew who i was singing about. he remembers it. he remembers everything. and now it's his favorite song.
i'm so used to guys who fall at my feet and give me everything i want and don't try to change me, and he doesn't do that, he's trying to get me to quit smoking and he makes me say words that don't come easily and he tells me when i'm being retarded. and yet i feel like i've never been loved this much, to the extent that he makes me cry cause i don't feel like i'm good enough for him and i feel like he's too good to me.
he has perfect timing with everything. i wanted to tell him about janine, i don't know why i just felt talking about her today, but i wasn't just gonna bring it up randomly. and then right out of nowhere he asks me about the girl who stayed with us 6 years ago who had the adorable little girl. what the hell?!
i was also trying on my sister's veil and rings today for her wedding and thinking about how pretty they were and how much fun it would be to get married and he was the guy who kept coming to mind. then tonight, after i have a random freak out and refuse to explain to him why, he tells me he wishes i was older cause he's pretty near ready to marry me. i hate to say it, but i don't thing age is the obstacle here! but for him to say that, and really mean it, when i'm being a total headcase, he's absolutely unbelievable. and i just wish i could give him the love he needs, but i have hundreds of defenses to break down in order for that to happen. he's already gotten through quite a few of them though.
You know now I'm not a man who's ever been insecure about the world i've been living in. I don't break easy, I have my pride, but you keep making me satisfied.
And I'm shameless, honey i don't have a prayer, cause everytime i see you standing there, i go down upon my knees. and i'm changing, i swore i'd never compromise, oh but you convince me otherwise. i'll do anything to please.
you see in all my life, i never found, what i couldn't resist, what i couldn't turn down. i could walk away from anyone i ever knew, but i can't walk away from you...
i have never let anything have this much control over me, i work too hard to call my life my own. and i've made myself a world and it's worked so perfectly, but it's your world now, i can't refuse, i've never had so much to lose.
you know it should be easy for a man who's strong, to say he's sorry or admit when he was wrong. i never lost anything i ever missed, but I'VE NEVER BEEN IN LOVE LIKE THIS
and i'm shameless, cause I DON'T HAVE THE POWER NOW, and i DON'T WANT IT ANYHOW it, so i gotta let it go. i'm shameless, shameless as a man can be, you can make a total fool of me, i just wanted you to know. that i'm shameless.
those are the lyrics to the song i was singing at my house months ago while he was there. i knew who i was singing about. he remembers it. he remembers everything. and now it's his favorite song.
i'm so used to guys who fall at my feet and give me everything i want and don't try to change me, and he doesn't do that, he's trying to get me to quit smoking and he makes me say words that don't come easily and he tells me when i'm being retarded. and yet i feel like i've never been loved this much, to the extent that he makes me cry cause i don't feel like i'm good enough for him and i feel like he's too good to me.
he has perfect timing with everything. i wanted to tell him about janine, i don't know why i just felt talking about her today, but i wasn't just gonna bring it up randomly. and then right out of nowhere he asks me about the girl who stayed with us 6 years ago who had the adorable little girl. what the hell?!
i was also trying on my sister's veil and rings today for her wedding and thinking about how pretty they were and how much fun it would be to get married and he was the guy who kept coming to mind. then tonight, after i have a random freak out and refuse to explain to him why, he tells me he wishes i was older cause he's pretty near ready to marry me. i hate to say it, but i don't thing age is the obstacle here! but for him to say that, and really mean it, when i'm being a total headcase, he's absolutely unbelievable. and i just wish i could give him the love he needs, but i have hundreds of defenses to break down in order for that to happen. he's already gotten through quite a few of them though.