happy birthday to me

[dogmouth]

I got the best present in the world for my 30th birthday. I'm sitting here at my desk looking at my prescription for testosterone. My doctor is reasonable and not into all the bullshit gatekeeping that most doctors around here use to make sure you can never get on testosterone or that it takes fucking forever. The bitch is I can't afford to get it filled until my next paycheck. But at the same time that will give me a few to used to the fact that I'm going to be shoving inch long needles into my muscles on a regular basis. I did it before for a few months and I know I can again but it still makes me kinda squick to think about it. But I'll get even fuzzier and my voice will drop more and all that crap so obviously it's worth it. Between this and my other meds I may finally feel like I'm who I was supposed to always be. Can't beat that for a birthday present.

I called into work sick for tomorrow because I've had a horrible cold the last three days. Got a lot of bs from the manager on duty but seriously I could give a fuck less lately. It's like do you guys really want me coming in and making everyone else sick? I get sick a lot easier since I was diagnosed with diabetes and it generally results in me being sick for a few days and having virtually no voice. There's really not shit I can do about that. Whatever, just irritates me. I have a receipt from my doctor if they really want to give me shit about it.

Anyways, I'd have more to say but I'm feeling like crap so maybe I'll continue this later. But yay testosterone!