Running away from speech.
Wow, I think I've totally become up to date with my friends page. Now I can post something myself. Well about half an hour ago I was quite angry because I spent the whole of yesterday and this morning doing homework. Practically non-stop. Unbelievable. It's the first bloody week of school, what is it going to be like next week? I still have English Coursework which is going to take ages because I'm not allowed to type it up and I have a couple of other things till to do. I'm definitely going to try and do more homework in the week, that will help me avoid the temptation of committing suicide. :P
My Hebrew learning is going quite well I think. We have one Israeli movie, so I'm going to buy some more to help me learn. I'm listening to Israeli radio right now and I'm onto the second tape out of four (which is really difficult and confusing but I'll know it all eventually). It's really interesting to be learning a language without a teacher, and I'm not even doing it properly. Sometimes I feel that I don't know anything, but I realise it's only been two weeks so I probably do know quite a bit. My mum seems to be pretty impressed.
I've been writing to my friend Gallia, I love writing so much. It's really special and something that I enjoy hugely. We also talk on the phone a lot, we didn't used to be so close, I've known her for years, but this summer we became so close and I miss her. We also both love Noam, and talk about how he never bloody talks to us on MSN. He's talked to Gallia once or twice, and even Georgia once, but he's never talked to me. At first I was becoming so upset about this, but I talked to Elisha and he said that he often doesn't talk to anyone, even in Hebrew. So Elisha gave me his address, so I shall write to him and see what happens. Now, I can't say anything about how I feel, just in case his mother has to translate for him and anyway, I've realised that I'm only 15 and I wanted to have my first kiss and be with him and stuff, but no. That's too young for me. I'm going to wait, 17 is a nice number, that's usually the age in movies and things. God, I must stop thinking that my life will turn out like it does in films. But you know, I'm going to be 16 this year (OMG) and I could legally get married, so a first kiss then wouldn't be so bad. *sigh*
In the Israeli movie I saw last night, this girl had feelings for this guy and they were in the army. So she was going to tell him and didn't, then he died the same day on an ambush thing. Now, ignoring the fact that he was gay, this is quite relevant to me. I must tell him, because what if something did happen and I had never managed to tell him, I would be crushed. So, I think that when I next see him and when I know Hebrew, I will tell him in Hebrew. What really annoys me is why I have to tell him? Why can't it just happen, you know? I want to know what happened with all of you on your first kiss/relationship, did you have to tell each other that you had feelings for one another or did it just happen? I saw 'Save the Last Dance' I think it's called, the other night. I really liked it. And it just happened with them, they both knew they liked each other so they never had to say anything. It would be so much easier if he just told me instead. x.x
My Hebrew learning is going quite well I think. We have one Israeli movie, so I'm going to buy some more to help me learn. I'm listening to Israeli radio right now and I'm onto the second tape out of four (which is really difficult and confusing but I'll know it all eventually). It's really interesting to be learning a language without a teacher, and I'm not even doing it properly. Sometimes I feel that I don't know anything, but I realise it's only been two weeks so I probably do know quite a bit. My mum seems to be pretty impressed.
I've been writing to my friend Gallia, I love writing so much. It's really special and something that I enjoy hugely. We also talk on the phone a lot, we didn't used to be so close, I've known her for years, but this summer we became so close and I miss her. We also both love Noam, and talk about how he never bloody talks to us on MSN. He's talked to Gallia once or twice, and even Georgia once, but he's never talked to me. At first I was becoming so upset about this, but I talked to Elisha and he said that he often doesn't talk to anyone, even in Hebrew. So Elisha gave me his address, so I shall write to him and see what happens. Now, I can't say anything about how I feel, just in case his mother has to translate for him and anyway, I've realised that I'm only 15 and I wanted to have my first kiss and be with him and stuff, but no. That's too young for me. I'm going to wait, 17 is a nice number, that's usually the age in movies and things. God, I must stop thinking that my life will turn out like it does in films. But you know, I'm going to be 16 this year (OMG) and I could legally get married, so a first kiss then wouldn't be so bad. *sigh*
In the Israeli movie I saw last night, this girl had feelings for this guy and they were in the army. So she was going to tell him and didn't, then he died the same day on an ambush thing. Now, ignoring the fact that he was gay, this is quite relevant to me. I must tell him, because what if something did happen and I had never managed to tell him, I would be crushed. So, I think that when I next see him and when I know Hebrew, I will tell him in Hebrew. What really annoys me is why I have to tell him? Why can't it just happen, you know? I want to know what happened with all of you on your first kiss/relationship, did you have to tell each other that you had feelings for one another or did it just happen? I saw 'Save the Last Dance' I think it's called, the other night. I really liked it. And it just happened with them, they both knew they liked each other so they never had to say anything. It would be so much easier if he just told me instead. x.x