Post-Thanksgiving: Full of thoughts
Not really "Ugly side".
I'm awake because I have to babysit a day prior to when the niece was supposed to come, so I'm a little ticked.
My mind is just full.
After a little sleep, I feel a bit better compared to yesterday. However, it's only because I slept; I still feel lost. I'm just disappointed after pledging that I'd accept myself for what I am.
Anyways, I watched the KIDS REACT version of Amanda Todd video. I think I've only seen about four similar videos where bullied kids express their feelings through flash cars. Like I said before, I'm not into watching them because I dislike bullying (and pitying), and I'm not into hurting oneself or committing suicide.
You're probably thinking it's wrong for me to say that I dislike pity. Myself personally, I don't like being pitied. I like to be alone and contemplate because I feel that things will get better and there are good people out there. That's all. Besides, in many cases, people are bullied for little to no reason.
Was Todd bullied before High School?
The Kids's Reactions were quite amazing. I agree with a lot of what they say; I hope they've learned a lesson, and what one girl said couldn't be anymore true -- "Those are not your friends".
Todd did nothing to deserve what happened. There are cruel people in the world. Why? How do people end up like bullies or quite self-important? I don't know.
It's not like everyone doesn't feel sadness. If we didn't feel sadness, it'd be problematic. At one point, I took medicine for depression. Apparently ADs softens that part of your brain that causes these inhibiting factors.
That's not gonna shield me from problems or make me pretend that it's not there. So I'm supposed to be a drug addict to avoid depression? Something that couldn't be helped? Akin to morphine for pain? Because it gives you a better living? I didn't like the idea. ADs didn't make me think better or remember better, it didn't stop me from making mistakes, and more importantly -- it didn't cure my disease.
Because it wasn't a sickness that developed over life, and it's something I had to live with, I didn't feel that things would end up better if I died.
Maybe that can be said about all sicknesses. Killing myself never crossed my mind; you/re probably thinking "Maybe you don't remember", but I do. Never thought about it, never attempted it, because I felt like things would get better. And one thing I despise seeing is family sad or crying, especially my own parents.
Matter of fact, part of my contempt for Stink-Pest stems from that.
I simply thought that I have too much to live for. But still...
Maybe I haven't fully appreciated Aspie.
Maybe getting a radio show is a good idea.
Or maybe I should do a response/anti-bully vid. Of course, not without a notebook.
There was something else I wanted to talk about but I don't remember.
Maybe later in the day: Doggie Week and Doggie Watchlist.
I'm awake because I have to babysit a day prior to when the niece was supposed to come, so I'm a little ticked.
My mind is just full.
After a little sleep, I feel a bit better compared to yesterday. However, it's only because I slept; I still feel lost. I'm just disappointed after pledging that I'd accept myself for what I am.
Anyways, I watched the KIDS REACT version of Amanda Todd video. I think I've only seen about four similar videos where bullied kids express their feelings through flash cars. Like I said before, I'm not into watching them because I dislike bullying (and pitying), and I'm not into hurting oneself or committing suicide.
You're probably thinking it's wrong for me to say that I dislike pity. Myself personally, I don't like being pitied. I like to be alone and contemplate because I feel that things will get better and there are good people out there. That's all. Besides, in many cases, people are bullied for little to no reason.
Was Todd bullied before High School?
The Kids's Reactions were quite amazing. I agree with a lot of what they say; I hope they've learned a lesson, and what one girl said couldn't be anymore true -- "Those are not your friends".
Todd did nothing to deserve what happened. There are cruel people in the world. Why? How do people end up like bullies or quite self-important? I don't know.
It's not like everyone doesn't feel sadness. If we didn't feel sadness, it'd be problematic. At one point, I took medicine for depression. Apparently ADs softens that part of your brain that causes these inhibiting factors.
That's not gonna shield me from problems or make me pretend that it's not there. So I'm supposed to be a drug addict to avoid depression? Something that couldn't be helped? Akin to morphine for pain? Because it gives you a better living? I didn't like the idea. ADs didn't make me think better or remember better, it didn't stop me from making mistakes, and more importantly -- it didn't cure my disease.
Because it wasn't a sickness that developed over life, and it's something I had to live with, I didn't feel that things would end up better if I died.
Maybe that can be said about all sicknesses. Killing myself never crossed my mind; you/re probably thinking "Maybe you don't remember", but I do. Never thought about it, never attempted it, because I felt like things would get better. And one thing I despise seeing is family sad or crying, especially my own parents.
Matter of fact, part of my contempt for Stink-Pest stems from that.
I simply thought that I have too much to live for. But still...
Maybe I haven't fully appreciated Aspie.
Maybe getting a radio show is a good idea.
Or maybe I should do a response/anti-bully vid. Of course, not without a notebook.
There was something else I wanted to talk about but I don't remember.
Maybe later in the day: Doggie Week and Doggie Watchlist.