shitting bricks
ok, I just wrote a whole page of stuff and it just vanished. So I am super pissed.
But i'm gonna recap. cos i have to.
I am meeting a movie writer/director/producer tomorrow. And i am shitting bricks. Seriously.
I am having major paranoia right now. Should I be bothering to do this? Am I good enough? Will I look good enough for the 'Hollywood' scene? Will I say ANYTHING interesting, or am I gonna be a big dork?
AH!!!
He just finished writing a movie about Britain and British people. And I'm worried I'm expecting too much. I mean, I'm not expecting to be a big star by November, and I'm not expecting any leading roles or anything...I mean, I am going to offer him my assisstance...my tea making skills. Seriously, just to be near this kind of stuff would be awesome, so I would love to be a part of it all.
Ok, I know that he is gonna give me some amazing advice. If nothing else, I will gain that from tomorrow. But I want him to like me. And to remember me. Who knows, one day the phone might ring...wont it...?
I am proud of myself already...cos I called the guy...I had a great conversation...and i arranged a meeting. For me, thats huge. I cant even call my own dentist for an appointment. I really do have issues with it. I get so nervous, I completely paralyse my own personality...wow, that was quite profound...
anyways, I know it will be amazing to just get advice from him. He knows so much about all the stuff I need, and is completley willing to tell me about it. Which is so awesome.
And whatever happens, happens...right?
And if he doesn't like me, there's nothing I can do about it.
yeah
oh my god, i'm my own Oprah!
I love Oprah. And Dr Phil. And all the gang. But just cos they're such bastards! I shouldn't admit that in public. Ssshh...dont tell anyone...
Anyways, my face mask is peeled, my hair is dyed, my eyebrows are plucked, my clothes are clean...anything else...?
I should go sleep. I seriously need it. You know what I do seriously need...? BEAUTY sleep. I wish.
ok, now Wings has just started...I swear, I have become Nick@Nite's most avid viewer!
And thats not healthy.
sleepy time now...
But i'm gonna recap. cos i have to.
I am meeting a movie writer/director/producer tomorrow. And i am shitting bricks. Seriously.
I am having major paranoia right now. Should I be bothering to do this? Am I good enough? Will I look good enough for the 'Hollywood' scene? Will I say ANYTHING interesting, or am I gonna be a big dork?
AH!!!
He just finished writing a movie about Britain and British people. And I'm worried I'm expecting too much. I mean, I'm not expecting to be a big star by November, and I'm not expecting any leading roles or anything...I mean, I am going to offer him my assisstance...my tea making skills. Seriously, just to be near this kind of stuff would be awesome, so I would love to be a part of it all.
Ok, I know that he is gonna give me some amazing advice. If nothing else, I will gain that from tomorrow. But I want him to like me. And to remember me. Who knows, one day the phone might ring...wont it...?
I am proud of myself already...cos I called the guy...I had a great conversation...and i arranged a meeting. For me, thats huge. I cant even call my own dentist for an appointment. I really do have issues with it. I get so nervous, I completely paralyse my own personality...wow, that was quite profound...
anyways, I know it will be amazing to just get advice from him. He knows so much about all the stuff I need, and is completley willing to tell me about it. Which is so awesome.
And whatever happens, happens...right?
And if he doesn't like me, there's nothing I can do about it.
yeah
oh my god, i'm my own Oprah!
I love Oprah. And Dr Phil. And all the gang. But just cos they're such bastards! I shouldn't admit that in public. Ssshh...dont tell anyone...
Anyways, my face mask is peeled, my hair is dyed, my eyebrows are plucked, my clothes are clean...anything else...?
I should go sleep. I seriously need it. You know what I do seriously need...? BEAUTY sleep. I wish.
ok, now Wings has just started...I swear, I have become Nick@Nite's most avid viewer!
And thats not healthy.
sleepy time now...