Good Morning
I don't know why I'm awake but it feels like I'm not resting when I sleep. When I wake up I feel like I just ran a 20k marathon or something, I know I need to see a doctor but I hate the idea of taking pills and I know that's what he'll suggest because he seems to think that pills can solve anything. I think if I meditate before I go to sleep maybe? Just concentrate on my breathing and "center myself" that I might sleep for longer and get more rest out of my sleep.
I think that part of it is because I'm so used to having someone next to me to spoon with or cuddle but it's been such a long time that you'd think I'd be over that part. I just need connection with another human being you know what I mean? I need to feel wanted and needed by someone other than my daughter and I've come to the conclusion that my ex wife is never going to be that person again.
So now the question is, how do I meet people? It's been so long that I barely remember what a date is like. I meet a lot of girls at the shop but sometimes I think they only hit on me because they think it will get them a discount or something
I think that part of it is because I'm so used to having someone next to me to spoon with or cuddle but it's been such a long time that you'd think I'd be over that part. I just need connection with another human being you know what I mean? I need to feel wanted and needed by someone other than my daughter and I've come to the conclusion that my ex wife is never going to be that person again.
So now the question is, how do I meet people? It's been so long that I barely remember what a date is like. I meet a lot of girls at the shop but sometimes I think they only hit on me because they think it will get them a discount or something