[private entry]
I know he thinks everything's easy for me, but it's really really not. I mean, I don't even get why he thinks that in the first place. He's rich and perfect and goes shopping every week. Scratch perfect, but still. It doesn't make sense. He's got the life and he thinks things are easy for me? The middle class black kid who always comes in second. In school, in basketball, in life?
It's not easy. Really can't stress that enough here. Really, really can't. But maybe that's why we... get along. Okay really, I'm mature enough to admit that we do. I mean, we're not friends or anything, but he's an okay guy. I'm not afraid to admit that.
I'm not!
So what if I kind of really want to audition for this pirate show he's doing.. it's just because I really like pirates. They're cool. And Johnny Depp made being a pirate look really, really fun. And Keira Knightley made it look hot. So. Why not?
He even said he wouldn't mind if I made lead. Not that I really want to or think that I could, I mean...
I'm never lead. Would be nice, though.
Why did he say that? Was he just making fun of me, or does he think...I could actually make it?
I should really go to sleep.
It's not easy. Really can't stress that enough here. Really, really can't. But maybe that's why we... get along. Okay really, I'm mature enough to admit that we do. I mean, we're not friends or anything, but he's an okay guy. I'm not afraid to admit that.
I'm not!
So what if I kind of really want to audition for this pirate show he's doing.. it's just because I really like pirates. They're cool. And Johnny Depp made being a pirate look really, really fun. And Keira Knightley made it look hot. So. Why not?
He even said he wouldn't mind if I made lead. Not that I really want to or think that I could, I mean...
I'm never lead. Would be nice, though.
Why did he say that? Was he just making fun of me, or does he think...I could actually make it?
I should really go to sleep.