Way Up North
There's so many things that I could say to people to make them feel better, but in life there are lines you draw, and lines other people draw, and with respect for each other, we honor most of them. Sometimes though, I wish those lines were invisible to me, like they are to little kids, you could cross them without feeling bad.
My friendship with Fyre is starting to feel strange. It was always my fear when I dated Andreya that I would come between her and her friends, and now I fear the same about Fyre, even though I would never think of her that way. It'll be interesting to see how it goes the first time someone spends the night with us. I think it might result in me spending a night at hallmark. It's nice to have a non-psychotic roommate though.
So hearing Fyre's situation with her dad reminds me of MEJ, just without the drinking. I really hope MEJ's doing well, but she hasn't talked to me in a while. It feels weird being detached from Waco completely. I almost wish I could save Tracee from her fate, but she wouldn't believe me if I warned her. Even though I'd like to save her, I know I don't want to get involved again, and I fully support Devin in walking away. Haley seems to be on an emotional roller-coaster which again, there's nothing I could ever say to comfort that. I dunno, there's some days that I just miss John, Haley, Cody, Devin, Hannah, Matt, and very rarely, I miss Tracee, Mary and Joel. Everything has changed though, at least, most of the good things have.
I've been celibate for a while now, even though I had a close call a little over 2 weeks ago. Someone I've liked for a while, and the sad thing is, they don't remember any of it. How can you be completely sober, be intimate with someone, go to sleep next to someone, and not remember those 2 hours? Needless to say I'm confused about where to go from there.
Sara moved back into her mother's house, ditched the boy, got a girlfriend, but the girlfriend's not allowed to stay at the house. Mom and I agreed that Sara wasn't to stay here. She's an old friend and all, but no.
My friend Lauren and I have been planning her hand-fasting that is supposed to take place around November. Hopefully it will not interfere with Dolly and Zeb's wedding. I've introduced her to the pyramid collection ^_^ we've exchanged horror stories.
I had my first day back at gymnastics on Wednesday, and I met someone there that kind of reminds me of PJ Erin. Her name's Hope, she's probably 15 years old. I'm still sore from doing gymnastics, so maybe this will be good for me. I already feel lighter and less stressed out.
I've also had an invite to come live in DC, and although I didn't mind the visit, living there seems too impractical.
That's pretty much been my week so far.
Oh and A Sorta Fairytale came in the mail today, and I bought Boys For Pele last night...
My friendship with Fyre is starting to feel strange. It was always my fear when I dated Andreya that I would come between her and her friends, and now I fear the same about Fyre, even though I would never think of her that way. It'll be interesting to see how it goes the first time someone spends the night with us. I think it might result in me spending a night at hallmark. It's nice to have a non-psychotic roommate though.
So hearing Fyre's situation with her dad reminds me of MEJ, just without the drinking. I really hope MEJ's doing well, but she hasn't talked to me in a while. It feels weird being detached from Waco completely. I almost wish I could save Tracee from her fate, but she wouldn't believe me if I warned her. Even though I'd like to save her, I know I don't want to get involved again, and I fully support Devin in walking away. Haley seems to be on an emotional roller-coaster which again, there's nothing I could ever say to comfort that. I dunno, there's some days that I just miss John, Haley, Cody, Devin, Hannah, Matt, and very rarely, I miss Tracee, Mary and Joel. Everything has changed though, at least, most of the good things have.
I've been celibate for a while now, even though I had a close call a little over 2 weeks ago. Someone I've liked for a while, and the sad thing is, they don't remember any of it. How can you be completely sober, be intimate with someone, go to sleep next to someone, and not remember those 2 hours? Needless to say I'm confused about where to go from there.
Sara moved back into her mother's house, ditched the boy, got a girlfriend, but the girlfriend's not allowed to stay at the house. Mom and I agreed that Sara wasn't to stay here. She's an old friend and all, but no.
My friend Lauren and I have been planning her hand-fasting that is supposed to take place around November. Hopefully it will not interfere with Dolly and Zeb's wedding. I've introduced her to the pyramid collection ^_^ we've exchanged horror stories.
I had my first day back at gymnastics on Wednesday, and I met someone there that kind of reminds me of PJ Erin. Her name's Hope, she's probably 15 years old. I'm still sore from doing gymnastics, so maybe this will be good for me. I already feel lighter and less stressed out.
I've also had an invite to come live in DC, and although I didn't mind the visit, living there seems too impractical.
That's pretty much been my week so far.
Oh and A Sorta Fairytale came in the mail today, and I bought Boys For Pele last night...