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i sat up all day tryin to get my life back together, i got a job hopefully im sure i will get it 2 g's a month but that still doesnt feel good right now. i have had six days to my self and just to talk to myself about what i want in life? what do i want? Love, passion, motivation to wake up in the morning what do u do when everyone around u looks at you like a weak person? im not fuckin weak but if u stood where i do today being strong might just be the hardest thing to do on your list. i love all my family and friends, i would never do something selfish like taking my life away because i didnt think i could handle it. i can. DAMN right i can. its just real hard to hold your head up high without people knowing the brouses and scratches it has takin just to put ur head up. But i will i tryed moving on but that one guy was too smart... saw my waeknesses that i cant move on yet( i lost him) sad but i did. god will help me i see it comeing .. love you
Jamie