Catch up time
#24- I been slacking on my writing and reading, sorry folks
Sorry guys I been MIA again but I am back at least for the time being. I have been on Zoloft now for one month and just went for my second visit to my shrink. So far its been a miracle. My moods are 100% better most of the time. I still get angry and frustrated at times but mostly I am just "rolling with the punches" so to speak. Things don't bother me now. The crying has stopped thank goodness. I am not dwelling on things anymore and I just don't think about unpleasant things anymore. The only downside is it seems to have increased my appetite and decreased my ambition to get my ass to the gym. So it would seem the price for a little piece of mind thus far has been 5 pounds (thats approx 2.5 kilo). It might be working too well since my goal was indifference to everything. I don't wanna be indifferent to gaining all my lost weight back, ugh.
Also I have now started taking Vyvanse for my ADD that I never knew I had. Today was the first day and it was really great. Got a huge burst of energy at work and stayed on task better than I have ever done in my entire life. Focus focus focus! Its great. Hope I will be able to sleep tonight.
Oh and Jeremy and I are still doing well in our very wrong very odd no boundries friendship. He actually came to church with me last Sunday night. I don't know that he will be back but he did go. Also our sex life right now is non existant cos his he hurt his back a couple of weeks ago and says he just can't. We did it a couple times with me on top which I hate with a passion. I am too self conscience for it. I feel like I am too heavy and I was so paranoid I was gonna hurt his back even more. He liked it (mostly cos he just layed there while I did all the work) but it didnt do it for me. Its all good I try not to think about it too much and I don't miss it TOO horribly yet. Been getting A LOT of reading done with all the free time I used to have sex in haha. Love you guys!