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[dodgermask]

It's funny that only when everything's going so right that something that feels truly devastating can happen. I found out today that I'm going to have to spend 1200+ dollars on car repairs this in turn will result in me having to max out my credit card, take a loan from my mother, and barely scrape by on rent, this is assuming that my former boss

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[nothing_2_offer]

"Do I find anything out about myself any more or have i figured most of it out that i can figure out by myself? Perhaps the answer lays deep in one of my philosophy texts some niche perhaps? moral philosophy? a song? a poem? a speach a meditation a lost soul?"

i feel that the answer lies in all of these, in everything that makes up day to day life: the pains of waking up and falling alseep, the happiness after a good meal or conversation, the thoughts of tommarrow, and the basically everything from books to philosophy its all life and the answer exists everywhere you look. someimtes i say that there is no answer, but i only half believe that becasue if the answer lies all around in the trees and the moon and the sun it might as well not exist at all life is life, it is everything and nothing, its the whole world, its what you make it.

and on a side note i totally get you when you say that only when things are going so perfectly do they seem to crash down all around you.

lift me up buttercup just to let me down, at least when your at the bottom theres nowhere left to go but up, at least thats what you would expect.