SPN Fic: The Thing About Clowns (Gen, PG13)

[dodger_winslow]

I'm a little late. Okay, I'm a lot late. About a month late, give or take a few days. The deadline was SUPPOSED to be Novemeber 17th, but the picture Marishna sent me wanted a very specific story to be told about it, and every time I tried to cop out and tell a different story, it ignited my intentions and burned them all to fucking ashes. So I

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[whiskyinmind]

This is just all kinds of awesome. Fantastic job! (hope you don't mind but I've rec'd this to a multi-fandom comm - pygs_lj)

[dodger_winslow]

Thanks! And I absolutely LOVE recs. Thanks so much for thinking of me.

[amanofmydreams]

Hey!

I just read this and wow! I LOVE IT! I mean i really really love it. I was just about crying at the end. This was a beautiful peice, You really found Dean and just ran with him. I loved how even when he was only five he was taking care of his family. Making sure that dad was happy, wanting to be with Sammy. it was perfect!

I love that Dean was the one with the problem, but only because the Clowns had taken him away from his father. It was a great story and i have to admit that I have rec'd this over at NWP. It was a great piece! I hope that you have more work soon and thank for sharing!

[dodger_winslow]

Thanks so much. Dean is a lot of fun to grab and run with ... especially when he brings John along for the ride :D

Thanks for the rec. I appreciate it. But I'm also a bit of a dope when it comes to shorthand ... NWP? Can you tell me where/what that is? Thanks!

[dodger_winslow]

Thanks so much.

[dolimir_k]

Little kids are incredibly observant and you captured that perfectly. I also love how you tied everything with Sam at the beginning. You make my heart break for little!Dean! whose only concern is making sure Sam is safe and happy, and who is so focused on safety that he can barely think of anything else.

And Dean waking up from his dream, still smelling his father, was just heartbreaking.

[dodger_winslow]

Thanks! I wanted to show Dean's grief from the inside instead of the outside with this one, which was a totally different kettle of fish. The continual obsessing on Sammy to the degree that a five year old wouldn't want to do anything except sit and watch his baby brother was a way I felt Dean might manifest his grief and damage internally without having any clue that's what it was, but being something that adults seeing how screwed his perspective is for a 5 year old would recognize.

[drlense]

This just killed me. Wow.

[dodger_winslow]

I'm sorry. I think. No, wait, that's right, I was trying to kill you. But only fanfictionally speaking. But that's what you meant though, right? Right? Right? Hello? Talk to me. Don't you dare die on me, dammit ...!

Okay, I may officially be too tired (read: too silly because I'm too tired) to be responding to comments. What I meant to say is, Thanks! :D

[drlense]

"CLEAR!" *thunk* "CLEAR!" *thunk*

beep. beep. beep.

Okay, I'm back. Hee.

Yes, you totally killed me in a really good fanfictionally way. I actually at times had to stop reading and do something else for a little while. Wee!Dean gets me every time.

[dodger_winslow]

He gets me, too. Especially when Wee Dean is grieving ... along with papa. ;)

[apieceofcake]

That was very well done, but I'd be lying if I said I enjoyed it..heartbreaking is more like it.

[dodger_winslow]

Actually, that was exactly what I was going for. TBT, I'm so late with it because every time I'd get hip deep in it, it would just depress the hell out of me and I'd have to stop writing. Something about telling Dean's grief through the eyes of a 5 year old instead of through my more normal perspective of John's eyes. Didn't realize it would be quite so emotional to write as it turned out to be. And not in a fun, enjoying it kind of way.

[apieceofcake]

I'm glad you said that, because I feel funny telling someone that I didn't enjoy what they had written.

I felt depressed and unsettled after and you explained why.

Glad I read it though :-)