Comments | dodger_sister: 5 Years. Today.

dodger_sister

5 Years. Today.

Jan 10, 2015 15:42

Today it has been 5 years since I touched an Oxycontin. /deep breath/

I never thought I would last this long. I never thought I would stay away from the temptation, but I also never thought that physically I wouldn’t end up needing something by now. Needing Oxy by now. I am stunned and joyed by this day.

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ceitfianna January 10 2015, 21:27:29 UTC

*hugs you* You're amazing and congratulations on five years!

dodger_sister January 13 2015, 01:28:13 UTC

Thank you! It is hard to believe, but here I am. <3

shirebound January 10 2015, 21:35:19 UTC

What a marvelous, insightful description of this time in your life. "Stunned and joyed" indeed... I'm so very proud of you.

dodger_sister January 13 2015, 01:29:47 UTC

What a marvelous, insightful description of this time in your life

Thank you! I am finally at a safe place in my life where I can think about in detail and reflect on it all and it has been illuminating. <3

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dodger_sister January 13 2015, 01:30:02 UTC

Thank you! :)

vikingprincess January 10 2015, 23:16:33 UTC

You have every right to be fucking proud, lady!

dodger_sister January 13 2015, 01:31:55 UTC

You have every right to be fucking proud, lady!

:) Thank you, babe! It is so weird though, to be so proud of something that started with so much shame. But I've worked hard for 5 years, so I decided to try and let go of the fact that I messed up in the first place and focus on how I have moved on from that. It feels great!

vikingprincess January 13 2015, 01:34:35 UTC

Exactly!

dugindeep January 11 2015, 00:45:20 UTC

I'm happy that you're so proud and strong. And very happy you're still here so that we could meet and know one another. ♥

dodger_sister January 13 2015, 01:33:18 UTC

I'm happy that you're so proud and strong. And very happy you're still here so that we could meet and know one another. ♥

Aww, thank you! Me too. I think of all the wonderful things I have experienced in the last five years - getting to know you included! - and am so grateful that I allowed myself the chance to experience them!