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The massive swings of emotion I am currently going through really are kindof bugging me. One moment I am walking along feeling gleeful - almost euphoric - the possibilities are limitless, there are so many things I've wanted to do but felt too tied down. And the next, mind numbingly hopeless. I will be alone and lonely forever and might as well jump start my transition into a hermit woman with ratty hair who collects vacuum cleaners.
The mood swings are deceptive. Difficult to discern the accuracy of how I am feeling.
I didn't expect breaking up to be quite this horrible. Surprise, it is.
Don't get me wrong. I have no regrets. I just. You know. Hate this.
The next months, year, will be a gargantuan upheaval of my life and effort to reinvent myself. It is exciting, and scary.
In case anyone is wondering, yes I am going to remain in Montana. At least for a bit, see how it feels to be here alone. If I decide it isn't working, I will probably either move back to Michigan for a bit for some R&R, or do something I've always wanted to do and move to Alaska. Because I guess western Montana just isn't quite far enough away...
The mood swings are deceptive. Difficult to discern the accuracy of how I am feeling.
I didn't expect breaking up to be quite this horrible. Surprise, it is.
Don't get me wrong. I have no regrets. I just. You know. Hate this.
The next months, year, will be a gargantuan upheaval of my life and effort to reinvent myself. It is exciting, and scary.
In case anyone is wondering, yes I am going to remain in Montana. At least for a bit, see how it feels to be here alone. If I decide it isn't working, I will probably either move back to Michigan for a bit for some R&R, or do something I've always wanted to do and move to Alaska. Because I guess western Montana just isn't quite far enough away...