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okay, long time no post, so here it comes, though I really don't think anyone ever reads this anyway so...
so happy, so sad,
sunshine in my heart, in my veins
I want it to be spring soon so I can fall in love, and you can fall for me.
many things happen few things I can remember it's a blur,
not fun anymore, I'm tired of all this, I feel like crying but then again not
like a spirit I float around, trying to grasp myself,
stop in a moment and never ever leave it,
never let it go, I want to be just like...who?
All I know is nothing, my mind is blank, it's too much to handle.
Lay down in the summerwarm grass, remember it's still cold as hell,
don' give a crap just dissapear in my thoughts,
that would be scary, my thoughts are not really to play with.
the sun warms my face, the beams are gently stroking my face, like your hands
used to do, they don't anymore, I miss that.
I miss YOU, don't know if you know but I'm not going to tell you,
if you leave, don't say goodbye
my creativity is damaged, I think it's had a bit to few cookies, I'm going to bake it some soon.
I feel alone, who in the whole world cares , I mean really, I'm just a tiny blob on the giant face of the earth, not worth much really. not to you atleast.
I'm bored in my skin, i want a new one, a freash one to start over.
the sweet sound of your voice in my ears, "I like you" the lie shines through, I get you, I know when you're honest. my breath is heavy trying to keep up with it all, struggling to hold the crumbling fasade up, I have no one to talk to about it, no one knows, the real me, the girl with the broken smile who seems alright but really is falling apart inside,
pressure and hearts, is it worth it? will anyone care? if I was to fall apart tomorrow...would you be there? to catch me? or to laugh at my doom?
quiet tears streaming down my face, no one sees them no one stops to dry my eyes. I just keep on going, keep on pretending everything is alright sobbing secretly in the most dusty corner of my heart.
my footprints in the sand, washed away by the water can I be washed away? wouldn't it be nice to just be sweeped away going where ever it takes you, but we both know that won't happen.
tunes in my head makes me feel good, makes me forget, builds me my own little world no one else knows where it is, I know, go straight into my heart, then turn left and open the right door, the big black one, with all the locks. knock the secret knock before you come in I'll know it's you, I may let you in, if you've been nice, if you're quiet so I can hear the beatiful tunes playing.
never holding on, never letting go,
from my heart to your mouths
enjoy
so happy, so sad,
sunshine in my heart, in my veins
I want it to be spring soon so I can fall in love, and you can fall for me.
many things happen few things I can remember it's a blur,
not fun anymore, I'm tired of all this, I feel like crying but then again not
like a spirit I float around, trying to grasp myself,
stop in a moment and never ever leave it,
never let it go, I want to be just like...who?
All I know is nothing, my mind is blank, it's too much to handle.
Lay down in the summerwarm grass, remember it's still cold as hell,
don' give a crap just dissapear in my thoughts,
that would be scary, my thoughts are not really to play with.
the sun warms my face, the beams are gently stroking my face, like your hands
used to do, they don't anymore, I miss that.
I miss YOU, don't know if you know but I'm not going to tell you,
if you leave, don't say goodbye
my creativity is damaged, I think it's had a bit to few cookies, I'm going to bake it some soon.
I feel alone, who in the whole world cares , I mean really, I'm just a tiny blob on the giant face of the earth, not worth much really. not to you atleast.
I'm bored in my skin, i want a new one, a freash one to start over.
the sweet sound of your voice in my ears, "I like you" the lie shines through, I get you, I know when you're honest. my breath is heavy trying to keep up with it all, struggling to hold the crumbling fasade up, I have no one to talk to about it, no one knows, the real me, the girl with the broken smile who seems alright but really is falling apart inside,
pressure and hearts, is it worth it? will anyone care? if I was to fall apart tomorrow...would you be there? to catch me? or to laugh at my doom?
quiet tears streaming down my face, no one sees them no one stops to dry my eyes. I just keep on going, keep on pretending everything is alright sobbing secretly in the most dusty corner of my heart.
my footprints in the sand, washed away by the water can I be washed away? wouldn't it be nice to just be sweeped away going where ever it takes you, but we both know that won't happen.
tunes in my head makes me feel good, makes me forget, builds me my own little world no one else knows where it is, I know, go straight into my heart, then turn left and open the right door, the big black one, with all the locks. knock the secret knock before you come in I'll know it's you, I may let you in, if you've been nice, if you're quiet so I can hear the beatiful tunes playing.
never holding on, never letting go,
from my heart to your mouths
enjoy