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Did you ever get that feeling that you're not good enough? that no matter what you do, no matter how hard you try there is aways going to be someone better than you?
It really sucks when you get this feeling and not only do you feel like crap because you are not the best, but it sucks ass even more when that person is your best friend. It really sucks when you felt so good about yourself for mentioning something in a class discussion but nope you can't have the glory long not while she's there to constantly say something smarter. and then to have the teachers constantly addressing her and only her half the time and then you just feel like an insignificant little butt.
And sometimes it sucks real bad when you are sincerely trying to look out for a good friend's well being and trying to protect her from what she might do to hurt herself and everyone else is against you? And you're trying to convince her that it's not good and that she's the only who will be disappointed and no matter how many people you try to convince her as well she ignores you and the people you try to get to convince her say whatever she'll be fine.
And then sometimes when it feels like you're the only person in the world being picked on. you feel like all they can do is pick at your clothes for the day or the one stupid comment you just made or how you're not part of the conversation so don't try to listen now. and sometimes you wonder if you really do fit in well with the group you hang out with or if maybe you just think you do bu in reality you're so different from them and you would be lost if you thought that there was no one else like you, but at the same time you want to be the only one who is you and only you.
And sometimes you wonder if you think too much and if you put too high of expectations for you to reach. maybe you were only meant for the mediocre lifestyle and the mediocre job and the mediocre education.
It really sucks when you get this feeling and not only do you feel like crap because you are not the best, but it sucks ass even more when that person is your best friend. It really sucks when you felt so good about yourself for mentioning something in a class discussion but nope you can't have the glory long not while she's there to constantly say something smarter. and then to have the teachers constantly addressing her and only her half the time and then you just feel like an insignificant little butt.
And sometimes it sucks real bad when you are sincerely trying to look out for a good friend's well being and trying to protect her from what she might do to hurt herself and everyone else is against you? And you're trying to convince her that it's not good and that she's the only who will be disappointed and no matter how many people you try to convince her as well she ignores you and the people you try to get to convince her say whatever she'll be fine.
And then sometimes when it feels like you're the only person in the world being picked on. you feel like all they can do is pick at your clothes for the day or the one stupid comment you just made or how you're not part of the conversation so don't try to listen now. and sometimes you wonder if you really do fit in well with the group you hang out with or if maybe you just think you do bu in reality you're so different from them and you would be lost if you thought that there was no one else like you, but at the same time you want to be the only one who is you and only you.
And sometimes you wonder if you think too much and if you put too high of expectations for you to reach. maybe you were only meant for the mediocre lifestyle and the mediocre job and the mediocre education.