blargh
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me lately. I have to basically force myself to eat anything. It'll be like 1:30 in the afternoon and I'll be staaarving to death... and I'll take like three bites of something and I just get sick. It doesn't even matter what I eat, smelling food even makes me sick. I haven't been able to sleep very well either. Now I get on the Internet and stay online pretty late, but the last week or so I just pace for an hour before I can even go to sleep after I get offline. And when I get to bed it takes me forever to finally get myself to go to sleep.
My parents are going through another string of inane nonsense. They've been fighting for years because my dad is a completely scumbag and does all kinds of completely inexcusable things on a frequent basis. Typically I'm fairly apathetic about what they do in general, since my mother won't do anything besides cry and yell at him. But apparently yesterday she told him to "get your fucking stuff out of the house" or some such because he moved in this crank-slut in our other house that used to be my mom's dad's. Oh yeah, that's lovely. And not the first time, sadly. He didn't, of course, so she says she's going to move out except she's done this before and he came and threatened her and told her all kinds of things that'd he'd do if she didn't. That last time she did this I told her that she just needed to leave him and get it over with, and she told me I was trying to DESTROY HER marriage. So this time I said "Do what you want.", told her my tummy hurt, and left.
And then there's the sags of my grandmother fighting with her sister, her sister being a nasty bitch about my great-grandmother's stuff, my grandmother's brother's children coming around despite having no claim to anything. And they have been in trouble for theft, which is disturbing. Add that with a couple of snooties doing things that are just dumb like hiring an estate organizer that gets 30% of the stuff when it could have easily been done by the family, and everything’s just sort of a massive drama bomb. And then my grandma generally being insane about everything and yelling at me 45 times a day over the most inane things, and I’m insanely on edge.
I dunno. Whatever.
My parents are going through another string of inane nonsense. They've been fighting for years because my dad is a completely scumbag and does all kinds of completely inexcusable things on a frequent basis. Typically I'm fairly apathetic about what they do in general, since my mother won't do anything besides cry and yell at him. But apparently yesterday she told him to "get your fucking stuff out of the house" or some such because he moved in this crank-slut in our other house that used to be my mom's dad's. Oh yeah, that's lovely. And not the first time, sadly. He didn't, of course, so she says she's going to move out except she's done this before and he came and threatened her and told her all kinds of things that'd he'd do if she didn't. That last time she did this I told her that she just needed to leave him and get it over with, and she told me I was trying to DESTROY HER marriage. So this time I said "Do what you want.", told her my tummy hurt, and left.
And then there's the sags of my grandmother fighting with her sister, her sister being a nasty bitch about my great-grandmother's stuff, my grandmother's brother's children coming around despite having no claim to anything. And they have been in trouble for theft, which is disturbing. Add that with a couple of snooties doing things that are just dumb like hiring an estate organizer that gets 30% of the stuff when it could have easily been done by the family, and everything’s just sort of a massive drama bomb. And then my grandma generally being insane about everything and yelling at me 45 times a day over the most inane things, and I’m insanely on edge.
I dunno. Whatever.