Say Goodbye-- say not so
Can't convince my family to let me stay, so tomorrow I board the shut-eye 6 AM filght back to my world, with a new set of skills, not quite honed, some new friends and the continued realization that I am a very special person. No, I don't mean that to sound uppity at all. It's just that it took me a long time to gain the self-confidence that allows me to act in a way that shows I have skills and knowledge. That is a topic for another time.
Yesterday we left the boat at 5:15 AM for the 4 hour drive into Miami. Lots to say about that, but not a lot of energy to say it. Another late night dinner- (how am I ever going to eat at a regular time again?) and a very long drive home. Of note was meeting Carmen, Wayne's associate in Miami-and her hugging me when I was leaving and her sweet words "I"m not going to say goodbye, cuz I know you will be back here again."
Today. We got up late, got to the gym late, got to the office late.. no wonder, since we got home- late. Beneath the tiredness is a sadness that I don't want to describe. I had to leave my desk about 11 and hide in the bathroom till I could stuff down the tears. There is still so much to do here, so much more I need to accomplish. I hate to leave things unfinished. I was glad for the break to go to the post office and the bank and do a little shopping, so I could get control of myself.
It's been a good trip. I have worked very, very hard these last 10 days, doing things I had little experience with, and handling those tasks in a professional and caring manner. I think one of the most important things I learned, one of the most important skills I want to integrate into my life on a permanent basis, is to care for people the way they need/want to be cared for, not the way I think they need to be cared for. It is a new shading on an old skill, but a shading that I need to set.
I have a few things I need to finish up here before I close up my shop here. If you guys who read this have any pull with the Creator or any other energy field, please send prayers and energy my way so I can get through the next 13 hours with the same spirit I have the last 10 days.
Yes, this has been a very worthwhile trip.
Yesterday we left the boat at 5:15 AM for the 4 hour drive into Miami. Lots to say about that, but not a lot of energy to say it. Another late night dinner- (how am I ever going to eat at a regular time again?) and a very long drive home. Of note was meeting Carmen, Wayne's associate in Miami-and her hugging me when I was leaving and her sweet words "I"m not going to say goodbye, cuz I know you will be back here again."
Today. We got up late, got to the gym late, got to the office late.. no wonder, since we got home- late. Beneath the tiredness is a sadness that I don't want to describe. I had to leave my desk about 11 and hide in the bathroom till I could stuff down the tears. There is still so much to do here, so much more I need to accomplish. I hate to leave things unfinished. I was glad for the break to go to the post office and the bank and do a little shopping, so I could get control of myself.
It's been a good trip. I have worked very, very hard these last 10 days, doing things I had little experience with, and handling those tasks in a professional and caring manner. I think one of the most important things I learned, one of the most important skills I want to integrate into my life on a permanent basis, is to care for people the way they need/want to be cared for, not the way I think they need to be cared for. It is a new shading on an old skill, but a shading that I need to set.
I have a few things I need to finish up here before I close up my shop here. If you guys who read this have any pull with the Creator or any other energy field, please send prayers and energy my way so I can get through the next 13 hours with the same spirit I have the last 10 days.
Yes, this has been a very worthwhile trip.