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doctorofdeath

beyond the rift } { public

Aug 24, 2011 00:17

My origins were a mystery to me for most of my life. I knew I was adopted, and my attempts to unearth any information about my birth parents were in vain; all the court documents were sealed. They had obviously gone to great lengths to disassociate from me entirely ( Read more... )

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[locked] ohshiny_tomatos August 24 2011, 13:24:13 UTC

Are you glad your parents adopted you?

[locked] doctorofdeath August 25 2011, 05:38:40 UTC

I had a good life, I had opportunities few people are given. I know they loved me, in their way, but there were times when I wished they were more loving, warm, involved.

[locked] ohshiny_tomatos August 25 2011, 20:28:49 UTC

But they took care of you, right?

[locked] doctorofdeath August 26 2011, 03:09:24 UTC

Oh, I was always taken care of. [In the true definition of being cared for, she was. She received the best education a child could have, she was able to enroll in the boarding school she'd chosen, she never wanted for much. Except love, and attention. She knows they loved her, and she loves them. But as she told Jane, there was a lot of benign neglect.]

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fortisleo August 25 2011, 04:22:33 UTC

I believe it's the choices that you make.

Everyone has good and bad within them wherever it comes from.

It's still the choices you make when you do have the choice that makes the difference.

Death defines people's lives in a lot of different ways, but it doesn't always have to be about killing.

I'm sorry you never got to know him.

doctorofdeath August 25 2011, 05:42:08 UTC

Yes, we're all a mix of good and bad.

I didn't understand my sentimentality at the time, and I don't quite understand it now. I suppose I just yearn for what could have been.

I'm more accustomed to the dead than I am to the living. They tell so many stories.

[locked] fortisleo August 25 2011, 06:35:25 UTC

We are. A very wise person once told me that, and I hold on to it whenever I start to wonder.

I think that might be it. I never knew my parents at all, and I wish for it. As long as you don't yearn so much that you stop living, I think it's alright to wish you could have known him better.

What do you do with the dead? I mean I don't think you said what your occupation was.

[locked] doctorofdeath August 25 2011, 06:59:55 UTC

I would never dwell in the past enough to let it detract from my life now. But there are those moments when I allow myself to contemplate alternative scenarios, silly as that may be.

I'm a medical examiner. I work frequently with the police department in Boston, where I was from before I arrived here.

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