One of those rare posts...
It's weird how a pointless observation can make you consider stuff. I know nobody reads this at the moment, but I guess we'll use it like a time capsule in case I ever go on a killing spree and they trace my online activity to see if my latent mental health issues should have been picked up before hand, preventing countless deaths want to let people into my little bubble of consciousness.
Was watching Voyager with my housemate the other day, and it was a Borg heavy episode. I commented aloud about finding the Borg Queen attractive, and my housemate's response was to tell me matter of factly that it was because I like dominant women. Now, my housemate knows me pretty well, but not that well (certainly not biblically, more's the pity), and from my own experience I'd generally say that this assessment of me is about a million miles from the truth, but the conviction in my housemate's voice suggested that it was just some obvious and accepted fact. Pitching it to Facebook via status seemed to get similar responses (including from probably the only person who'll read this, heh) Combined with that hoo haa at the end of the last academic year when I found out several people were labouring under the misapprehension that I was gay (either closeted or openly, depending on who you asked), I've started to wonder what sort of signals I actually give out.
Anyone who knows me very well already who reads this (which is noone, unless you're snooping on me, but if you are you should just say hello already, I don't say anything here I wouldn't say to your face) probably knows that, pointless and brief misadventures aside, I've had three noteworthy 'relationships' in my life (all with women, by the by). Not one of those women was dominant. I'd go as far as to say far from it, but that's not polite conversation. Two of them (including the one I was with the longest) were very string willed and feisty, though, and it was a big part of what I liked about them.
I think what it comes down to is that I'm attracted to scrappy, tough girls... I think I like the sport, but I have to win. The few times I've almost ended up with people in the past year or so that's pretty much been the deal breaker- they've either been too easily cowed, or required me to give too much ground, and I can be incredibly stubborn with things like that. I dunno. I've been accused of expecting too much of people, especially from a relationship standpoint, but fuck it- if it's going to be a solid friendship, or a relationship and not just some biological tomfoolery, it must surely be better to set standards before hand, rather than try and shape people into what you want. Meh.
Pointless long winded self analysis with a dash of whining I guess. Maybe I really am good at this LJ lark! I do it in my head all the time anyway, not sure why I felt this needed committing to the ether. I might start writing more here. But really, do I come off as submissive and gay? IDGI.
Was watching Voyager with my housemate the other day, and it was a Borg heavy episode. I commented aloud about finding the Borg Queen attractive, and my housemate's response was to tell me matter of factly that it was because I like dominant women. Now, my housemate knows me pretty well, but not that well (certainly not biblically, more's the pity), and from my own experience I'd generally say that this assessment of me is about a million miles from the truth, but the conviction in my housemate's voice suggested that it was just some obvious and accepted fact. Pitching it to Facebook via status seemed to get similar responses (including from probably the only person who'll read this, heh) Combined with that hoo haa at the end of the last academic year when I found out several people were labouring under the misapprehension that I was gay (either closeted or openly, depending on who you asked), I've started to wonder what sort of signals I actually give out.
Anyone who knows me very well already who reads this (which is noone, unless you're snooping on me, but if you are you should just say hello already, I don't say anything here I wouldn't say to your face) probably knows that, pointless and brief misadventures aside, I've had three noteworthy 'relationships' in my life (all with women, by the by). Not one of those women was dominant. I'd go as far as to say far from it, but that's not polite conversation. Two of them (including the one I was with the longest) were very string willed and feisty, though, and it was a big part of what I liked about them.
I think what it comes down to is that I'm attracted to scrappy, tough girls... I think I like the sport, but I have to win. The few times I've almost ended up with people in the past year or so that's pretty much been the deal breaker- they've either been too easily cowed, or required me to give too much ground, and I can be incredibly stubborn with things like that. I dunno. I've been accused of expecting too much of people, especially from a relationship standpoint, but fuck it- if it's going to be a solid friendship, or a relationship and not just some biological tomfoolery, it must surely be better to set standards before hand, rather than try and shape people into what you want. Meh.
Pointless long winded self analysis with a dash of whining I guess. Maybe I really am good at this LJ lark! I do it in my head all the time anyway, not sure why I felt this needed committing to the ether. I might start writing more here. But really, do I come off as submissive and gay? IDGI.