( 5 ) Nightmares
This song is one of my favorites. The year was '06, and the month was December. It had been a few days since my first and only real girl friend broke up with me and I am having these dreams about her every night. None of the dreams are bad in any way and waking up from them was bringing me to tears. About a week after she broke up with me I woke up from a very vivid dream. It went like this, (in my dream) I woke up in my room, in my bed, but with her by my side. I grabbed her close and held on tight. She said "No. Let's just sleep, ok?" and then I kinda laughed and told her that was all that I wanted. She held me back and we both were then holding each other very tightly. Tis then that I realized that it must not have been real, and thus I asked her, "This is a dream isn't it" she kept her eyes closed and after a brief moment of silence told me "Yes." and I then told her that I really didn't care as long as she was there, and so we both lied there together in each others arms until we both fell asleep. I felt her fade into my comforter and woke up for real, freezing cold (our family currently can't afford to keep the heater on at night and it was 40 something outside that mourning). In my sadness I got on the computer to tell someone of my dream and perhaps alleviate some of the pain, but with no one online at the hour, I opened MS word and wrote this song out in just a few minutes. Reading it over, I felt much better, and I realized that to me this was one of the better songs that I had written.
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Nightmares
Today I woke up from a wonderful dream,
Of you in my arms, lying there with me.
I reached over to grab you, and held you close,
It’s times like these that I miss you the most.
It was just another dream,
That felt too damn real.
Another nightmare it seems,
This terror I feel.
You asked me why I was holding you so tight,
That’s when I was filled with a horrible fright.
I realized then, that it was not ever again for real,
But I didn’t care; it was you I wanted to feel.
It was just another dream,
That felt so damn real.
Another nightmare it seems,
The terror I feel.
I told you that I would never let you go,
I held you close, our faces pressed nose to nose.
I asked if we could sleep in each other’s arms,
I wanted you there to protect me from harm.
Holding each other closely we both feel asleep,
Then again I lost what I wanted to keep.
I felt you slowly just slipping away,
Until I woke up alone and afraid.
It was just another dream,
That felt too damn real.
Another nightmare it seems,
This terror I feel.
I just want to hate you, but sometimes it’s hard,
You still feel so close, when you’re really so far.
I wish I could remove you from all of my past,
If I don’t soon, then my heart will not last.
So I will find a way, to stop all the dreams,
The only I way I can is by hating you it seems.
So I’ll beat my self up when I think of you,
All those great times, I must now go and undo.
It was just another dream,
Just another dream…
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Nightmares
Today I woke up from a wonderful dream,
Of you in my arms, lying there with me.
I reached over to grab you, and held you close,
It’s times like these that I miss you the most.
It was just another dream,
That felt too damn real.
Another nightmare it seems,
This terror I feel.
You asked me why I was holding you so tight,
That’s when I was filled with a horrible fright.
I realized then, that it was not ever again for real,
But I didn’t care; it was you I wanted to feel.
It was just another dream,
That felt so damn real.
Another nightmare it seems,
The terror I feel.
I told you that I would never let you go,
I held you close, our faces pressed nose to nose.
I asked if we could sleep in each other’s arms,
I wanted you there to protect me from harm.
Holding each other closely we both feel asleep,
Then again I lost what I wanted to keep.
I felt you slowly just slipping away,
Until I woke up alone and afraid.
It was just another dream,
That felt too damn real.
Another nightmare it seems,
This terror I feel.
I just want to hate you, but sometimes it’s hard,
You still feel so close, when you’re really so far.
I wish I could remove you from all of my past,
If I don’t soon, then my heart will not last.
So I will find a way, to stop all the dreams,
The only I way I can is by hating you it seems.
So I’ll beat my self up when I think of you,
All those great times, I must now go and undo.
It was just another dream,
Just another dream…