life as a grenade...
i cannot not pen what i felt after i've watched "The Fault in Our Stars 2014" the movie and how it has influenced me and set me thinking about my life, my situation, my experiences. not that anyone bothers or even taken notice of, but still believing that there's a reason for everything that has happened, that whoever that is in charge above has a plan, and that journey has to be completed somehow in the fashion that it is meant to be.
the movie is beautifully scripted to let anyone who has had been experienced what the two lead characters experienced believe that there's hope, miracle, and most importantly love. love doesn't stop happening for whatever reasons and circumstances. it is still the most important basic need of us. the desperate longing to be loved and to love is always ignored and buried away in the deepest corner of our hearts. we are so afraid to fall and be hurt. so much so that we rather be alone and not gamble for the one last time. the truth is that each time when we are hurt, someone will be hurt too. in our current society, most of us if not all have set up such a high standard for love, a scorecard that almost no one is able to score a distinction, let alone a pass. he has to be this this, that that, so as to be accepted by our friends and ourselves. unfortunately, that person also has a similar expectation of us.
i teared badly watching the movie. not because i felt sad for the characters but more so that i secretly wish that such love would happen to me, to you, to us. the love is so simple yet endearing. it is one of the most purest form of loves that i have ever saw, not limited to boundaries of time, circumstances and difficulties. i wish that i am fortunate to have experienced such beautiful love. time to time again, i crushed the loves that were blessed upon me. i feel the characters in the movie. i know how it feels on racing against time. i apprehend how it feels to know that tomorrow might never happen and that time isn't an entitlement but a privilege as each day passes on like a grenade. no one would ever understood the fear of living in a time capsule and that this capsule has a time limit before the energy is used up. if i can have another wish, i hope love hasn't given up on me yet for i haven't given up on it. so, treasure the love that you've found and bask in happiness that both of you are still together at this very moment reading my entry.
the movie is beautifully scripted to let anyone who has had been experienced what the two lead characters experienced believe that there's hope, miracle, and most importantly love. love doesn't stop happening for whatever reasons and circumstances. it is still the most important basic need of us. the desperate longing to be loved and to love is always ignored and buried away in the deepest corner of our hearts. we are so afraid to fall and be hurt. so much so that we rather be alone and not gamble for the one last time. the truth is that each time when we are hurt, someone will be hurt too. in our current society, most of us if not all have set up such a high standard for love, a scorecard that almost no one is able to score a distinction, let alone a pass. he has to be this this, that that, so as to be accepted by our friends and ourselves. unfortunately, that person also has a similar expectation of us.
i teared badly watching the movie. not because i felt sad for the characters but more so that i secretly wish that such love would happen to me, to you, to us. the love is so simple yet endearing. it is one of the most purest form of loves that i have ever saw, not limited to boundaries of time, circumstances and difficulties. i wish that i am fortunate to have experienced such beautiful love. time to time again, i crushed the loves that were blessed upon me. i feel the characters in the movie. i know how it feels on racing against time. i apprehend how it feels to know that tomorrow might never happen and that time isn't an entitlement but a privilege as each day passes on like a grenade. no one would ever understood the fear of living in a time capsule and that this capsule has a time limit before the energy is used up. if i can have another wish, i hope love hasn't given up on me yet for i haven't given up on it. so, treasure the love that you've found and bask in happiness that both of you are still together at this very moment reading my entry.