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Today I am planning to meet my paternal grandmother for the first time. I mentioned my dad finding his mother after 50 years a while ago here in my journal. He has since taken responsibility for her and moved her down here to LA.
I am going to go first and then my sister Stacy will go maybe this weekend.
Can you imagine not seeing your sons for 50 years..finding him and his brother and learning you have grandchildren, great grandchildren..in-laws..ect?
Poor dear...
I have been thinking how could something like this happen and I realized it is because of my grandfather. He locked her up and walked away. That bastard! This poor woman was denied any kind of life because of him. When I was a kid he was a great man to me and I did'nt even know what he had done.
I just can't stop thinking about my grandmother and what was taken from her. My heart breaks and I hope I can give her some joy in her last days.
Please God, give me strength not to be a blubbering mess when I meet her. I do that kind of shit all the time.
I am going to go first and then my sister Stacy will go maybe this weekend.
Can you imagine not seeing your sons for 50 years..finding him and his brother and learning you have grandchildren, great grandchildren..in-laws..ect?
Poor dear...
I have been thinking how could something like this happen and I realized it is because of my grandfather. He locked her up and walked away. That bastard! This poor woman was denied any kind of life because of him. When I was a kid he was a great man to me and I did'nt even know what he had done.
I just can't stop thinking about my grandmother and what was taken from her. My heart breaks and I hope I can give her some joy in her last days.
Please God, give me strength not to be a blubbering mess when I meet her. I do that kind of shit all the time.