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I have had a few major wake up calls in my life recently.
One is the death of someone I didn't really know but, saw some of myself in her. My heart aches for those that I know loved her and she sooo deserved that love.
Another is the realization that I completely hate my job. I can't force myself to do this job anymore. My identity has become so wrapped up in this job that I lost contact with the real me. Shit..look at my user name..lol. I have done things I never would have done before I got this job. Many I regret.
Today I took the first step to releasing myself from this job. I called the Dept. of Real Estate to reinstate my Californina RE licence. I feel good about this.
Peope aren't going to understand. They are going to try to talk me out of this decision thinking they are helping me. They don't understand what this job has done to me. The most difficult will be the dissapointment from my dad :(
I also need to stop drinking. ya...
One is the death of someone I didn't really know but, saw some of myself in her. My heart aches for those that I know loved her and she sooo deserved that love.
Another is the realization that I completely hate my job. I can't force myself to do this job anymore. My identity has become so wrapped up in this job that I lost contact with the real me. Shit..look at my user name..lol. I have done things I never would have done before I got this job. Many I regret.
Today I took the first step to releasing myself from this job. I called the Dept. of Real Estate to reinstate my Californina RE licence. I feel good about this.
Peope aren't going to understand. They are going to try to talk me out of this decision thinking they are helping me. They don't understand what this job has done to me. The most difficult will be the dissapointment from my dad :(
I also need to stop drinking. ya...