I know it's been a long time...please forgive me.
I know it's been a while, and I apologize. I just haven't been in the writing mood lately really. I've just been chillin really getting my shit up here from college, and getting ready for going into the Air Force. It's kinda crazy, but it's something that I have to do...it's something that I want to do really.
You know I've been thinking...since I've been off my meds, I've noticed that I've been having my ups and downs again. It sucks because they are actually worse than before. I don't understand why they are worse, but they are. I just don't want to be around anyone and I really don't want to talk to anyone much anymore...much less go and see anyone. And it just sucks because since I'm home I want to see people but I don't want to at the sametime because of the fact that I'm having my ups and downs and I'm easliy annoyed and I havent been in the mood to hear about a bunch of stupid shit. Like for real, depending on who it is, I won't even answer the phone because I just know how the converstaion will end up. It just sucks, but I'm gettin better with all that though which is good, but then again it's not because I really don't give a shit to a certain extent. I really don't and I don't know if that's a bad thing or not. But like if it's shit that i don't want to hear about...I'll be the first one to tell you that I don't want to hear about it and to shut up. But a good thing is that I will voice my opinion more openly and not care how it effects the other person in any way, shape, form, or fashion. I just don't care....maybe that's good on that level, but I dunno. When it comes to Dr. Jessie, then it's a good thing because Dr. Jessie doesn't need to sugar coat anything at all because yeah...that's just not Dr. Jessie.
*sighs* Tomorrow is turkey day. Wow...that's insane really. But hopefully it will be all gravy and shit you know??? I'm just hoping that my mom won't freak out on anyone about everything dealing with tomorrow. But anyway....
I'm going to go now and I'll write more later on.
Dr. Jessie
You know I've been thinking...since I've been off my meds, I've noticed that I've been having my ups and downs again. It sucks because they are actually worse than before. I don't understand why they are worse, but they are. I just don't want to be around anyone and I really don't want to talk to anyone much anymore...much less go and see anyone. And it just sucks because since I'm home I want to see people but I don't want to at the sametime because of the fact that I'm having my ups and downs and I'm easliy annoyed and I havent been in the mood to hear about a bunch of stupid shit. Like for real, depending on who it is, I won't even answer the phone because I just know how the converstaion will end up. It just sucks, but I'm gettin better with all that though which is good, but then again it's not because I really don't give a shit to a certain extent. I really don't and I don't know if that's a bad thing or not. But like if it's shit that i don't want to hear about...I'll be the first one to tell you that I don't want to hear about it and to shut up. But a good thing is that I will voice my opinion more openly and not care how it effects the other person in any way, shape, form, or fashion. I just don't care....maybe that's good on that level, but I dunno. When it comes to Dr. Jessie, then it's a good thing because Dr. Jessie doesn't need to sugar coat anything at all because yeah...that's just not Dr. Jessie.
*sighs* Tomorrow is turkey day. Wow...that's insane really. But hopefully it will be all gravy and shit you know??? I'm just hoping that my mom won't freak out on anyone about everything dealing with tomorrow. But anyway....
I'm going to go now and I'll write more later on.
Dr. Jessie