Long Day
Well, it looks like it is over between me and Buddy. I have been crying my eyes out all day and all last night. The fact that he wanted to separate for a while wasn't that bad. However, I soon found out the whole truth. He doesn't want to be with me anymore because he wants to go out with Gina. FRIENDS DON'T DO THAT KIND OF THING TO EACHOTHER! They both "like" eachother and he says that he still "loves" me. Obviously not. What I want to know is why he would sacrifice our 7 months for a stupid crush that he has had for two weeks or less. F****** BASTARD! She has never liked him before so why start now? I HATE GINA FURTADO! I seriously woulndt care if I never ever saw her ugly face again. I HATE her.
He says that I am his best friend and he still wants to be that way but it is too hard for me. I just know that soon she is going to be his best friend, not me. And he also says that he wants to do all the stuff that we had planned this summer (canoeing, horseback riding, getting fit together) but I KNOW that it won't fly with Gina. I desperately hope that this will be like all her other crushes. She likes them for a week or so and then leaves them in the dust. I can only pray that this will be no different. Yeah, thats kind of selfish but it hurts so much I can't bear it. Whenever I even think of her holding hands with him or riding in the middle seat of his truck where I used to sit so close to him makes me lose it.
The worst thing is that I could tell something was wrong with him and I so I wrote him a beautiful song on the piano to remind him how much I love him. He never heard it. H knows about it, but doesnt know it is written for him.
He says that I am his best friend and he still wants to be that way but it is too hard for me. I just know that soon she is going to be his best friend, not me. And he also says that he wants to do all the stuff that we had planned this summer (canoeing, horseback riding, getting fit together) but I KNOW that it won't fly with Gina. I desperately hope that this will be like all her other crushes. She likes them for a week or so and then leaves them in the dust. I can only pray that this will be no different. Yeah, thats kind of selfish but it hurts so much I can't bear it. Whenever I even think of her holding hands with him or riding in the middle seat of his truck where I used to sit so close to him makes me lose it.
The worst thing is that I could tell something was wrong with him and I so I wrote him a beautiful song on the piano to remind him how much I love him. He never heard it. H knows about it, but doesnt know it is written for him.