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Amy: I used to think June was the answer. When she was a baby, I'd look at her and I just felt like, no matter what I did or didn't do that day, her love would never waver. And I've been chasing that feeling with her ever since. But she's getting older, and her love gets very conditional.
Danny: Right, like if you give me that cookie, then I'll give you the hug. Paul is like that. Still is.
Amy: Exactly. I realized, you know, when she was a baby, she never had unconditional love for me. People think babies are so innocent and cute but they're not.
Danny: They're all screaming and crying because they don't got what they want right away. Ugh.
Amy: They're the most ruthless of us all. They just lack the words or power to do anything about it.
Danny: A baby with mobility and strength is just a serial killer.
Amy: And yet, to think, I expected this little child to make me whole, when George couldn't and work couldn't.
Danny: Why is it so hard for us to be happy?
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Amy (In Danny's voice): Did you know Joseph Heller titled his book Catch-18 but his editor arbitrarily changed it to Catch-22?
Danny (in Amy's voice): No
Amy: Well, for as long as I can remember, that's what being alive felt like. Can't have form without space. Can't experience light without dark.
Danny: We're stuck.
Amy: Yeah, and any time you try to hold on to one thing, it slips away.
Danny: I've never been able to describe this feeling inside of me, but I think that's it. Catch-22.
Amy: Right, it's like a void.
Danny: But not. It's like empty but solid.
Amy: Yes that's right Daniel. Empty but solid. Right under the surface.
Danny: You think other people feel this way?
Amy: I know George doesn't. I hope June never does. I don't know. Maybe we're not normal. Maybe we're too fucked up.
Danny: Or maybe normal people are just delusional fucked up people.
Amy: Either way, that's why I don't believe in God.
Danny: What do you mean?
Amy: Why would a God make it like this?
Danny: Well, if God is everything, then we're God. That means God is just like us. Maybe that's why everything is the way it is.
Amy: God's just trying not to feel alone in nothingness.