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I'm rushing for sororities.
I never thought of myself as the sorority type, but I get along really well with the sorority type of girls. My best friends for years are almost all in them now. I have fun around girls like that, just as much (but in a totally different way) as my friends who enjoy my fandoms and anime. I didn't expect myself to actually go for it though, I skipped fall rush because I figured they wouldn't like me.
It's because I'm so lonely at school. I want something to be a part of, something to be proud of. I want to show me letters on shirts and bags and feel like I belong somewhere. Plus, you're never bored with sororities, and it gives you a great way to not only meet people, but it's going to kick my ass into shape.
And not just in the fit way, either. I'll never be a small girl. I mean not wear shitty clothes that don't fit, actually have my hair clean, things that I should do anyway but don't.
Yesterday was the big information thing, where I went around and talked to representatives from the different sororities. I really hit it off with the girls from Delta Delta Delta (I know) and Kappa Alpha Theta. But then I get back, and Alex has a facebook message from Sigma Delta Tau already inviting her to stuff, and Lisa got a text from Alpha Gamma Delta doing the same, and they're talking about how they got their names circled in the back and I didn't get any of that.
I mean, yeah, I pretty much made my facebook unreachable at this point. I took out my middle name, unattached my FSU e-mail and took myself off the FSU network, then made it friends only, because I don't want the stigma of "cosplayer" attached to me before they get to know me. I'm not hiding it, i'm just making sure they go at me with an open mind, like I did with them (Tri-Delt is considered a more..."unmodest" sorority, as in "if your girlfriend wont, try delt"). If I get a bid they'll know me when they actually get to know me, I won't hide if asked. I'm not ashamed. If they actually like me my hobbies will just be a cooky side note.
But still. I didn't get pulled behind the table, I didn't get a name circle, and ive yet to get an e-mail or text. It makes me sort of depressed. I liked the girls, and I thought they really liked me too, but I guess I just didn't "wow" them. It's kind of a big blow to my confidence, especially since I thought I was looking rather hot when I got there.
Oh well. I'll see where things go from here, but so far ive gone from like 70% sure I would get a bid to like 20% and kind of sucks. But whatever, I bounce back from everything pretty fast. Today is my favorite classes, costuming and my Doctor Who/Star Trek english, IN WHICH I HAVE ACTUALLY MADE FRIENDS. LIKE, FRIENDS WHO FACEBOOK MESSAGE ME TO DO SHIT AND HANG OUT AND BGUIBDFGUBDFGDUFBGDF OMG.
It's a big deal.
Plus I have a quiz later in math, which feels weird, because I haven't taken math in years. It's a nice feeling when I actually get something and can pass a quiz on it, it feels familiar. I forgot how good I was at it.
This entry is going to end now.
I never thought of myself as the sorority type, but I get along really well with the sorority type of girls. My best friends for years are almost all in them now. I have fun around girls like that, just as much (but in a totally different way) as my friends who enjoy my fandoms and anime. I didn't expect myself to actually go for it though, I skipped fall rush because I figured they wouldn't like me.
It's because I'm so lonely at school. I want something to be a part of, something to be proud of. I want to show me letters on shirts and bags and feel like I belong somewhere. Plus, you're never bored with sororities, and it gives you a great way to not only meet people, but it's going to kick my ass into shape.
And not just in the fit way, either. I'll never be a small girl. I mean not wear shitty clothes that don't fit, actually have my hair clean, things that I should do anyway but don't.
Yesterday was the big information thing, where I went around and talked to representatives from the different sororities. I really hit it off with the girls from Delta Delta Delta (I know) and Kappa Alpha Theta. But then I get back, and Alex has a facebook message from Sigma Delta Tau already inviting her to stuff, and Lisa got a text from Alpha Gamma Delta doing the same, and they're talking about how they got their names circled in the back and I didn't get any of that.
I mean, yeah, I pretty much made my facebook unreachable at this point. I took out my middle name, unattached my FSU e-mail and took myself off the FSU network, then made it friends only, because I don't want the stigma of "cosplayer" attached to me before they get to know me. I'm not hiding it, i'm just making sure they go at me with an open mind, like I did with them (Tri-Delt is considered a more..."unmodest" sorority, as in "if your girlfriend wont, try delt"). If I get a bid they'll know me when they actually get to know me, I won't hide if asked. I'm not ashamed. If they actually like me my hobbies will just be a cooky side note.
But still. I didn't get pulled behind the table, I didn't get a name circle, and ive yet to get an e-mail or text. It makes me sort of depressed. I liked the girls, and I thought they really liked me too, but I guess I just didn't "wow" them. It's kind of a big blow to my confidence, especially since I thought I was looking rather hot when I got there.
Oh well. I'll see where things go from here, but so far ive gone from like 70% sure I would get a bid to like 20% and kind of sucks. But whatever, I bounce back from everything pretty fast. Today is my favorite classes, costuming and my Doctor Who/Star Trek english, IN WHICH I HAVE ACTUALLY MADE FRIENDS. LIKE, FRIENDS WHO FACEBOOK MESSAGE ME TO DO SHIT AND HANG OUT AND BGUIBDFGUBDFGDUFBGDF OMG.
It's a big deal.
Plus I have a quiz later in math, which feels weird, because I haven't taken math in years. It's a nice feeling when I actually get something and can pass a quiz on it, it feels familiar. I forgot how good I was at it.
This entry is going to end now.